Life is beautiful like  song theme
Yet there are some blurry things
Things that are  moving like locus
Everything blurry but still keeping focus-
On making work done
Which was left undone
Which was left -
Thinkin’ blurry things in life is bad
That left things now make me sad

Sitting in the tool, mother’s sewing the wool
saying him , ‘’ son, life is beautiful ‘’
But there’s blurry things in him
Making a beautiful life as sin —
So always think twice before speakin’
Be  wise after sb start believin’
Coz blurry things in life stays forever
Stays forever ♾

त्यो पुरानो तन्दा आज फेरिएछ
बीचमा परेको पुवाल खोज्छु
आज त छैन खै

सायद त्यो तन्दा बारे लेख्न ढिला भयो
फूलको बगैंचाले पो ओघटे छ
आज त छैन खै

मलाई तेल लगाई चट्ट पार्ने मेरी आमाले
फाटेको त्यो तन्दा तान्दा तान्दा चट् भएछ
आज त छैन खै

सानो अंश अगेनो छेउ "हनमेर्नु"
दबिलोमा माटो लाग्न नदिने "झत्तो"
भान्सा घरलाई टलकाउने "पोछा"
पैतालाको पानी पुस्ने "तौलिया"
मेरो त फाटेको तन्दा
आज त छैन खै

Who’re holding it ?
How are they holding it?
Why are they doing such ?
Maybe to break world records
He can hold breath ten minutes
Shall I go for ten and one ?
Eminem ; breathless ; HELL yeah-a
Rap god and Godzilla-a

Some holding breath before making decisions
And most of em holding to not to cry
After their wrong decisions
(Two strangers)x2
Friends and best friends
In love but holding breath
She’s waiting if he proposes first
And he ; doing the same

Today is his result day
He is holding his breath
Bowing in front of god
Saying this time give me B+
Atheist before
But in fear realized god

Alia father is going to give her surprise
She is holding breath
Is that make-up box , iphone or scent made up of wine ?

Neighbor uncle working in field
Holding the breath
Hoping sun will be shielded
By the cloud and will rain

Meanwhile,
People in the street
Holding the breath
Hoping it won’t rain
Until they reach home

All are holding
I am not holding for him
He is not holding for her
She is not doing such for em
But all doin’ the same !

When I remember name crazy
I put a name of you
I still remember
Dad taking us school
In his old red Kawasaki
Me sitting on the tank
And
you murmuring ‘ la la la la la ‘ from back-seat
Used to have different beds
rotation always
Pillow fights
Claiming parents ‘I am right’
Your sheets always clean
And me exchanging it
Secretly and rapidly
Fights apart,
There used to be
Nuisance talks between two heads
Sometimes eating all chips
And meanwhile sharing breads
( I used to lie before ) x2
But you looked cute in red
Those days,
Showing less love and more hate
Today,
Showing less love and more hate
But deep inside god knows !

When I was 10 , I got to use a laptop
Learned new things from back to top
Started from Pbrush and trynna photoshop now
I didn’t know what was Cmd and  what was Wikihow !

Machine in my nerves and  machine learning my passion
I can’t explain me and my machine relation —

In mid 10’S
That conversion of two chargers to one
In early 11’S
That knowledge about ROM and RAM
In mid 11’s
That using winword,  excel and paint
and in 18’s
Trying to make my  blog by starting like an ant 🐜

My lappy taught me many thing
And I am doing onething
Dedicating this short poem to the machine
Which  I always loved and will love till this world will stop doing programming !

They say ugly
I say beautiful
Because those fool
who are like pencil neck
Saying we follow brotherhood
Making the ring
But are Racist and appealing
comparision between wood and paper
Like Brandy whisky jams and liquor
Tom( a white fellow) needs black Iphone
wants black sheet in his bed
But he hates
That black girl Anna
But listens song of Rihana
Puts headphones
Singing ‘’
Being Aryan
I respect all
Whether they are mongol
or the are Baptist
But not racist
Stop racism and instead of ‘ I ‘ and ‘ My ‘
Start saying ‘ we ‘ and ‘ ours ‘
Just do nothing
Follow the flow of Martin Luther King Junior
And feel the change !

There’s a new reality show out
My excitation touches a certain height
And suddenly
I am off , says the light
You are welcome , gazes the darkness
Unluckiness approaches peak
mind says let’s have fun
Friends and love are on (online)
No internet coz light’s gone
Checks balance on my phone
Cheapest data is of ten
But i don’t know why my balance nine dot nine
Now no work what to do
Steps in imagination
Sitting straight as if doin’ meditation
Backbone bowed and pen as arrow
Deep ignored pain
On bone marrow
Lucky in love but god is treating
As if I am a vain
Same like rainbow after rain
My happiness is after pain !

Addiction in anything
Starts with a sip
Drunkard
Coming back home
His car horn doing ‘ beep beep ‘
That’s not the real him
Who’s pressing horns
Inner him newly born
After the  sip he had taken
Started with a sip on November
Now no member remember
Him as a normal
Coz speaks truth but informal

A sip and puff
to liters and cones

He’s so lucky ; said by sheep friend
Who’s stranger before the sip
Heads casino
Earns ten thousand bucks today
One thousand made ten
Thoughts everything will x10
One house ten
Ten house equals bungalow
One Volkswagen ten
Ten equals Audi
After that what happened
Nither other know nor he wants to
Aiming for big tender
Now he’s bartender
In the bar
Where he took his first sip
Saying
I slipped due to sip !

The more you get hydrated
The more I flow
I am only the one
Who starts from your head
Goes through nose
And settles in your mouth -
If lips are open ;
If not
Touching the edge
down your chin
Feeling the throat-beat
Covering your chest
I perch in navel  
I am sweet for those
who earn me by burning
Maybe sour to em
Who make by looting
make me roll isn’t easy
make me do so
majority of em run for gyms
Hardly any shovels and heaps
There’s my attendance
In presence of hammer or tongs
Or in conclusion of any decisions  
When yelling **** and bull story
Or while you forget to clear the history ;
I flow and I flow again feeling your body
Making you feel , to feel some air ,
Compelling you to off your hoodie
I am in love and in hate
I am sweat !

Gah !
Homework dairy full
Coursework all over head
Reached home and
leaned freely on bed
So he start to procrastinate
feel diZzy doing assignment
Whether it’s of
Mathematics and environment
Moral science or health
For him
It’s a serious disease
destroying his ease
Postpone and delay
Pupils copying in relay
Uncaring the bumps of humps
Brother helping sister with her homework in bus -
To complete before reaching school gate
But he procrastinates !

Nah!
Emma not Salman Khan
Making my quarantine
Valentines in  house
Coz
No farmhouse to have
Jacqueline in
Okay !
Don’t wanna make it
That’s not my fate
To be in date
Always
But I am like a garbage bins
Without my kiths and kins
Where are the moments ?
Watching movies and getting hyped
Happy in coca-cola or wine
But now it’s 55th days
Hadn’t seen their faces
So now I am messaging god
to pull off from this grave
By your grace
This glitch is enough
we learned how to live
Forgive us
We are in your need !

I don’t know who is it’s creator
Whoever/whatever maybe god gifted nature
Or fabricated by creature
Earpods in ear
Noise cancellation on
Ready for adventure and calorie burn
Emma lying , flesh growing
Its an mind’s eye ( haha )
Every beats and flow in it
Taking me Niagara falls and sometimes Bahamas
Enjoying peacock plumage and mean time in the herd of lamas

If one song was a Cassette
Till date billions framed
I am sure with it’s reel
Can easily surround the earth
Coz  since its birth
Medicine for people
For whoever it be
If lives in cowshed or mansion
It’s free
Giving hope to survive
Messaging the importance of life and relation
Reviving us from anxiety boredom insomnia depression
Really works and one can feel
Thus proved music heals !

( Mathematics was easy ) x2
When we used to spell it maths
Till it was limited to addition and subtraction
Instead of calculus and integration
when there’s  algebra and equation
Yes it was easy
When ‘’ ! ‘’ was just exclamation mark
‘e’ was just an alphabetic art
Till sin, cos and tan were
Homophones of sign , cosh , ten
Confusions didn’t arise at that age
When
Gauss , Pythagoras and Simpson photo;
pasted on General knowledge (book)
It arised when their creation were hard to acknowledge
It was easy
When circle was just a ring
No formula and any mugging
When ‘c’ was nither arbitrary nor proportionality
CONSTANT
When relation was just connection
Function was just operation
No hypothesis and theorems
Mathematics was easy !

Have you ever thought ?
How ?
How am I surviving
Despite you holdin’ me on neck
Oh man !
Now take some break
Push the brakes
Yes , My ink bout to complete
Huh?
You refilling me again ?
Hey dear
I am mighty Natraj
Hauser uncle ready for hustle burn
Linc and cello aunt ready for turn
Who can understand my pain?
Why am I your favorite pen ?
Can’t see **** stucked in my tail?
Hey , I am bout to ****
Requesting you
Not lemme ring the bell
Targeting your nose, ready to make you fail
By my smell
Huh ?
You refilling me again ?  :-(

Without you ,
How can there be sunshine -
In my eyes
Who can be there
Where my left ventricle lies
Complete but incomplete without you
I am sad happy but not happy sad
I am roughly fine but not fine
So you are the one all I own
Starting from dusk till dawn

(I tried once)x2
Acting against
This Opposing force
The more I jump
The more pain on ***
Put helium gas on loons
Sent far from the eye reach
But it outburst
Saying me your plan’s worst
Now
   How ?
Can I manage to go against it in the end ?
By what means ?
Can I  be faster that 11.2 km/s ?
Or even equal to it ?
Or not even one tenth ?
So like this
There’s in my mind
Thousands of questions like blowing wind
And at last
Gravity wins !

I , I am not only one who live in my room
There’s spider 🕷 webbing -
I can see above my head —
Rat chewing my bed
( karat, karat ,karat )
sewing machine filled with rust
Computer keyboard  full of dust
God smiling at me from near the bird nest
Saying me silently, ‘’ What next ? ‘’
Broken door with a hole,I can see sun rays
Stack of books not opened for days
and
I am writing poem covering my body with blanket
Dull from outside, inside there’s spell of rage -
And still thinking to -
Upgrade the room or stay in this rampage!

( Who can feel ? )
The struggle of people
Starving for food shelter
You ?
who gobbles peanut butter daily
You ?
Who’s having breakfast lunch dinner supper
You ; today salad tomorrow malt
Their ; empty sugar flask and salt’s
You ; mac Donalds pizza and rice half boiled
They ; rice flakes and no stock of oil
You ; Levi’s jeans and hilfiger’s belt
AC car and box bed
They ; old jeans you threw
Rope belts and bottle shoe
No bed to keep the head
Empty belly cheeks all red
Who can ?

Hmm ! All are waiting for
For their life to fall
Waiting for saying that
death is not near
With lots of fear  
and trying to get success ;
Knowing  that death will face
May be early or late ;
a person with good fate
cannot make death on his control
But in society he has some role
Accomplished it ,
and ready to face end  with gutsy
Because he’s as happy as Larry
He’ll not stuck in purgatory
He aimed  for -
Not to live forever in earth
But to live forever in other heart
So the song of happiness was sang
After his death bell rang !

When distance is long ,
Patience must be strong
Strong enough to not to wakeup in midnight
Strong enough to wait
Feel the moonlight
And remember the last date

(While we see these two words)x2
feels nothing ,
it feels like two very common word
Common word ;  ‘aince ’ are same
Nth weird but sth is for sb who’s waiting ,

Who’s waiting for love to spend time with
Who’s waiting for warm hug and kiss
By whom he/she is missed
To whom he/she miss

So  they are hanging on in patience
Hoping that someday get able to shorten the distance  !
                  *.          .*

Abbreviated words and their clear meaning
Nth : Nothing
Sth : Something
Sb: Somebody

Today’s really special day
don’t need reason to laugh
Can laugh seeing cow eating hay
Why to be sad of ending April
To make people fool as jester
Huh ? Isn’t there May in your calendar
Laugh sharing happiness
Laugh until people ponder you as -
Having mental illness
Be lighter as Hydrogen
So can make the radons
as airy as you ;
laugh watching fairytales or horrors
Make other laugh and be ready to bother
by sharing memes and being sharer;
making memes and being memer -
enjoying every seconds and later
Make other laugh for life and let your laughter -
Be the reason of something greater to other !

Dear Parents,
You told me
I started walking with palm as lice
and now can run miles
Look parents I grew up
Hey Sister,
I still remember we always urged
But now
I have respect to you and love
Look sister I grew up
Dad ,
You always told ;
and now -
l finally know that all well-wishers are not friends
all disbelievers are not enemies
Look dad I grew up
Grandma ,
Your oil-massage ;
On my whole body still making me fit
Your grandson can easily lift his Granny
In your balcony to room journey
Look Grandma I grew up
Dear mom ,
How can I explain how praiseworthy are you
Saving me from dad sticks
and giving me some brooms
Providing me freedom and showing bloom
Five to ten rupees pocket money regularly
To having self bank-account
Look mom  I grew up !

I wish mothers’ day to all the mothers
Who are fathers’ to children whose -
Fathers are farther ;
Who’s always ready to work as a street cobbler or a barber

Doing her work harder -
She’ll not eat bread but provide you cake
Ate all thing today tomorrow what to bake?

But,
Again she’ll manage it anyhow
She’ll feed her son daughter -
Keeping empty bowl for her

Starving in hunger from inside
Hands  still shivering due to ice -
The work she did yesterday in snow filled roadside

No fix work for tomorrow
Prays to god for the snow
If not what to do ?
Childrens are suffering from flu

So she did the work and got some wages,
And ;
Her children filled their stomaches
So she forget all hunger and aches of her
And we call her ANGEL MOTHER :-)(-:

A 18 year young boy ,
In front of mass he stills feel shy
But,
he’s digging the future
he’s digging the future for his life
So can make future of his wife child bright

( In this jeopardized situation )x2
In future he is aiming for mansion
Aiming to do sth for nation
Hoping for well utilization of his creation
he’s digging the future —

Hoping for sth good
to manage his daily expenses and food
He’s now burning like a wood
By not worrying he’d be coal
By being sure that he’ll reach the goal
he is digging the future !

Hustling to learn new things
Thinking what my mind will bring ?

What my mind will bring in near future
Can I make it good or will lead to failure ?

In this good grades and excellency raid
Oh almighty , can I be short-listed ?

Questioning myself ‘ when will you grow up ? ‘
Many ebbs and flow but never giving up

Never giving up but in phase of
brightening
Furnishing, plastering , reusing but not misusing -

Will never give up until I reach my goal
I will not care If stuck in hole or gaol

Recycling the issues that took place
Brisking my speed and ready for the race !

People are jobless , completely hopeless
Completely hopeless to survive ,

Waiting for ding **** death bell
They don’t know the journey is upto heaven or hell

Children’s parental care is lost
Money’s became nth after this virus outburst

God,
Take this virus away miles and yards
We can’t see our spouses and children in graveyard

Hope you are planning something great
To take us out of this dangerous threat

Thousands of creature
Created by god
Among them one is bird
Parrot peacock pigeon penguin
Redhead rooster raven robin
Company of parrots aching stomaches
Waiting for corn to come-out from mustache
Yes we all know
****** of crow
eats once in a day flesh or rice
and not let other flocks do twice
Peacocks busy showing plumage
Eye-catchy and has win over all age
when we trynna see from beach
Penguins start disappearing in sea
Pigeon dove showing love and peace
On starting of dusk and merely on dawn
Rooster ‘****-a-doodle-do’ sound
Red head flying showing red head
Raven robin having good date
Ostrich , Danfe hornbill and all
Loved from different nooks by people
Tanager tattler trush and teal
Spiny babbler only in Nepal
So birds name  are in our heart
Thank you Charles Bonaparte !

My life is like a dilemma now
Before I’s doing as my mama told anyhow

But,
Today, I have to take my own decision
Today , my parents believe in their son
And I am in dilemma again
What to do for no pain and gain

Where to step where not to
What to  learn what not to
Whom to care whom not to
How  to live the life and make death not near to

Not stepped the road’s up
Hope that will be black topped
If it would be muddy or gravels
I couldn’t dream about pearls and marbles

So, I am in dilemma again
What to do for no pain and gain!

Without getting bore in chaos
He’s Staring at the things for hours

Mentally ill , physically dull
Buffering in every steps at all

Listening to the birds chrip
He’s staring and staring -
Hadn’t noticed red scar in his hip
Hypnotism hit him -

Becoming passionless
Sleeping and growing flesh

So now by God’s grace
He’s to aim for ace

Because -
He’s hypnotised now ,
Hypnotism hit him !

Whether it’s 1 bucks or thousand ;
75  percent cotton and 25 linen -
The same material used for both ;
But why one is easy to find
and -
For thousand  a labour should nearly grind
Gates, Ambani and more have billions
But we don’t know billions -
Who are starving for this cotton-linen
For this  cotton-linen ;
Which is ruling the World -
But I say ; this’s doin’ nothing -
Nothing but increasing inequalities
Disparities and uncertainties
Gold plates for rich -
And no grains for poor
What is the use of silver plated bed
Which will not let a head -
to sleep well ;
Not let one to have good days
Where is brotherhood and peace ?
Where are the principles makers of good deeds ?
Indeed all are in competition of money heist
Today ,
A rich kid isn’t taught to be socialized ;
But coached to keep million in his mind
He is grind to aim for money in ;
So starts to race for money in early teen
‘******* ‘ , now he’s also a spendthrift
Now,
let’s imagine world without money
We would live in peace sharing milk 🥛 and honey 🍯
End of inequalities
Can fulfill our commodities and all
And -
life would be beautiful and we would never fall !

When you are stressed
When you are wrecked

When Boredom hits hard
A cup of tea is the healing guard

In Re-union or break-up
In parties of patch-up
A cup of tea is ordered first  

Keeping Cappuccino and americano apart
Tea is flowing in every nerves and parts !