Someday someone won’t be afraid of how much you love.
They won’t stay on the shore; they’ll meet you in the depths
You weren’t made for shallow waters,
Your heart is an ocean.

Life is like a piano,
The white keys represent happiness,
The black key represent sadness,
But as you go through life's journey,
Rememeber that the black key make music too.

HE hurt you,
HE abandon you,
HE cheated you,
HE used you,
HE destroy you,
HE tried to ******* **** you,
But you are still you.

When I see you online and not replying me
When I knew you went somewhere without telling me
When you disappear for too long after I send a text
When you decided to act sulky and not talk to me
When you said you are someone motivation at the gym
When you said you will sleep but act differently
When you don't want affection in public
When you don't want to make love to me
When you went out from the office secretly
When you talk more to another guy instead of me
When you can't fall asleep beside me
When you don't trust me
When you cried telling it to me
When you tried to ignore me
When you said you love me
What the **** is wrong with me ?

I'm sorry for being me
I thought we connect idealistically
I thought you will act differently ,
But apparently,
You don't see what I see.

I'm sorry for letting you be,
To not be able see who you are to me
To think that I will act cowardly,
And to see me as ordinary.

All I am looking for is tranquility,
Unfortunately,
You are trying to achieve spiritually,
But let me tell you blatantly,
You aren't that different from me.

You told me,
You need the sense of security,
And the sense of certainty,
But my darling,
You aren't wiling to dive deeply.

Tying a knot does not provide security,
Nor does it ensure certainty,
I failed as a lover,
Because you didn't realize,
what's reality.

If all I am looking for is just to be *****,
I won't come up with all the activity,
I won't be able to make you cry softly,
Or even to share my thoughts to you
genuinely.

The fact that you felt guilty,
To love comfortably,
Believe me,
That hurts me.

So here I am telling you directly,
I couldn't be with you in this journey,
Cause it's a pain for me to see,
You suffer and torture yourself mentally.

I will never be who you want me to be,
Because we were all designed differently,
You said I treated you disrespectfully,
Without realizing my insecurity.

I'll leave for now so that you see,
I am not acting contradictorily,
I am just being me.


But please,
blame it on me.

I would like to express my gratitude to my parents

It has been difficult for both of you from the day I was born ...
I was born with my small and large intestine twisted...
I was sent to hospital several times because of asthma...
I had a lot of accidents since I was small...
I was stubborn , naughty, playful , and a hyper kid ...

It was difficult for you  raising up
A child like me


I wish I was better ,
I wish I was healthier ,
I wish I didn't let u shed a tear,
and I wish that I can make you happier....

For those tears you shed for me ,
Because of my accidents,
of my stubborness,
or even my wrongs,
I'm sorry...

I can't turn back time to change those events,
But I promise that I'll do better this time ..

Thank you for giving me a chance to see this world ,
Thank you for raising me up ,
Thank you for providing me a shelter,
A place I could find comfort ,
and I call home..

Thank you for enduring me,
I was a stubborn kid ,
I made mistakes I knew I shouldn't,
It was a learning process,
For me to find my true identity,
And I thank you for helping me ,
Helping myself to discover me.

When I was small,
I promised myself to let you proud,
And to let you shed tears of happinness,
But sometimes,
I don't do it well..
And I knew you were dissapointed for myself,
So thank you for giving me a opportunity to change,
And thank you for your efforts in raising me up.

The moon is a loyal companion.
It never leaves. It’s always there, watching, steadfast, knowing us in our light and dark moments, changing forever just as we do. Every day it’s a different version of itself. Sometimes weak and wan, sometimes strong and full of light. The moon understands what it means to be human.
Uncertain. Alone. Cratered by imperfections.