I had a dream
Talking in forevers,
dancing with my future

Dreamt the sky bluer
Dreamt autumn brighter
Dreamt the grass softer

And in this dream
I had my hopes,
I spoke them in forevers

And in this dream
The night caught up
My feet drew weary

Dancing with my future
I lost my footing
and woke

I started walking
and didn't dream
for many nights

on tree lined trails
fall leaves cut
through brittle air

striking and beautiful
I was me
and real

Talking in forevers
I was happy
and awake

but rose lenses
and red eyes
gave way to sleep

And I dreamt
Autumn truly bright
once more

and under trees
through falling leaves
I screamed

You should know better
than to talk
in forevers.

You were in my dream
last night again,
but it didn't seem
the same its been

we didn't get
us back once more
we didn't let
us open sores

your hair was long
your face was older
your stress seemed gone
with weightless shoulders

We were together
frog and toad
just friends, good weather
no past debts owed

And when I woke,
that morning bright
my thoughts did choke
but my heart was light

I had your memory, snow-white pure
yet didn't feel, your absence there
To have had you, I'm so grateful, sure
But I no longer breath, recycled air

We are in the night
Each behind doors shut
And marked with blood

Innocent blood spilt on the grounds
That it would give protection.
And protection it did give but

The cries of pain that laid over our city
And rattled in my room, filled me with regret.
I pray if it was necessary with no divine response.

So we let the ghost of loss pass over our home,
feeling it, yet letting it take nothing
And when the sun rises on the new day and

Brings us our deliverance of love—
For us there will be
A future.

If you gave me the chance,
I would do laundry with you
For the rest of our lives.
Doesn't that sound nice?

I would do laundry with you
I’d wash the dishes too.
Doesn't that sound nice,
Peacefully, beside each other

I’d wash the dishes too
After all the meals we’ll cook
Peacefully beside each other
And talk about our life.

After all the meals we’ll cook
We’d curl up close watching tv
And talk about our life.
Those are my favorite nights,

We’d curl up close watching tv
Warm and safe and quiet
Those are my favorite nights,
And this could be our life.

Dear T,

If I can be honest,
Im lost without you,
Or maybe I'm just lost.
I was someone else
When we first started dating
And you were someone else too.
I loved changing alongside you.

If I can be honest,
It scared me at the end.
I didn't feel like myself
And I wasn't sure who I was,
Now I'm different, yet the same.
In college, its normal, to become something new
I loved creating something new with you

And if I can be honest,
I miss you with all my heart
It makes my chest swell with regret,
And my mind swirl in disappointment.
I want to be proud of who I am,
Of the things I do.
I loved being proud of you.

I don't know if I can be honest.
I lie to myself.
I try to be good and I try to be me,
But those **** philosophers
Make me believe,
I don't know what good is and I don't know who I am,
But honestly, if we're talking of honesty
Then truly I know only one truth.
Honestly, truthfully, T,

I love you.

Always,
C

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