You take my breath away
literally
You suffocate me
LET ME ******* BREATH

I only come here now when things seem to be going bad.
Hi, it's been a while.
I didn't think I would be back in this place
I didn't think that I would be feeling this way
It is truely mesmerizing how much i want to make myself believe in something that is not there
It truely is ******* unbelievable how I love to be treated this way
Like the " I know I don't deserve this" girl who always go back to the same sick ****
Hi,
It's me
I know I should've wrote
I'm thinking about being on my own
Again.
I don't feel bad about the idea this time
It would be better than where i am
Im in the middle of a fog
I just need to forward a bit more
I'll be okay
Hi,
It's time I give up on "What will be"
Start believing what is
You know?
It's time
For me
To leave
This behind
It is time
That is what it is

You should read
The love letters
You sent me
Turns out they're full of lies

You broke me into a billion pieces
You threw me
Im broken into a billion pieces
And I can still say that I love you
It will take me a long time to find myself
And probably a lifetime to put myself back together
Even after that I will still love you
I will love you forever
I will love you after all the pain
Because when I said forever
I meant forever

Its you again
Salty
Warm
Heavy
Transparent
But so significant
My tears
Its back
The hatred
The regrets
The disrespect
You

I accept that I am my own person
   I accept you are yours
I accept I can only influence
   Not control
I accept change
   I accept experience
I accept what can't be
   I accept what I've done
I accept the past the future and the present
   I accept that I'll always love                                            unconditionally
I will accept life and how things need to be

I've gotten to accept the flaws that reflect upon looking at my own flesh
I've grown immune to feeling self concious
I never do
I find that my crooked nose and funky smile
Are so oddly beautiful in a certain way
My eyes sit deep noticeably dark and hollow
Unproportioned
Unaligned
The wierd scars the dent and jump throughout my skin
I assure you im not full of myself nonetheless feel any uncertainty
Oh but inside of the shell im destined to live in
Is the most important, sacred, strongest thing of all
A soul
Still so beautiful nothing could change my mind not the time nor the age
Or the eyes that will never know the definition of love and beauty

Time
We've made up something absolutely insane
When I come across the word time, it resembles routine.. to me
It does not symbolize dawn, morning, afternoon, evening, night, midnight , twilight
I used to live a life where time was everything
I must finish school at a certain 'time'
I must have independency only for a certain amount of 'time'
I must fall in love after I've become 'successful' which takes 'time'
why
I must go to work and work and work for a loooooonnnnggggggg
'time'
If I don't finish school now,
they say I'll never do it.
because I won't have 'time'
If I have kids now I'll never live life
god ******* ****
what the **** is time
time is a ****** up concept
and I've realized that
I will do things whenever it feels right
because whenever it feels right is the right ******* time to do it
Not when someone with the ignorance to believe In time tells me it's time

Me beso
y todo se me olvido

..... And if you leave me today I'll have nothing to say but to me it will always be an unfinished happy ending....

Why is not the question I should be asking
I cannot ask why I am going through such a hard time
I cannot blame others or the forces of the universe
I cannot blame god,
I mean I don't even believe the guy does miracles
I cannot ask why
Simply because there is no answer.
I must ask how? How will I get through this?

When you're here... its okay if I'm under a bridge,
it's aright if I don't fit in
life's amazing and my heart goes crazy!
When you're here I don't need money
I don't need to feen
When you're here I'm so complete
As much as I try my brain won't fool my heart
You're not here
we're far apart
I'm alone
My soul knows there's no place like home
My legs search for another pair in the dark
I fall apart,
I cry, and cry
My pillow keeps me company tonight...

love is like a seed
any seed
if you bring the sunlight
I will bring the water
the seed will flourish into the most beautiful thing,
the most delicate thing
if the sunlight dies out
there's only so much the water does for the seed
it wont longer flourish as beautiful
it will no longer be as strong
slowly it will start to die..

Even when I'm having the busiest day
I find time to think of you
weird huh

It makes me laugh
when you don't think your charms are enough
It cracks me up
when you think I could possibly love another
I laugh hysterically
when you question my honesty and loyalty
I can laugh so hard that I start to cry
when you ask me if I love you
are you ******* kidding me?
I feel more than love for you!
you're one amazing dude

The life inside of me lingers out of her body searching for you  
She's only breathing not living
She's holding on with every bit of faith, with every bit of strength
She promised you she will wait
As long as it takes
Without you, her soul will not be the same
Together our souls will suffer and together our souls will conquer
And if in this life things don't go as planned in another we will meet again

I might have took the wrong way
There were no signs on display
This path didn't look any different than the other
So how could I have taken the wrong path way ?
You were there in the intersection
You were going to guide me through,
Somehow I lost you and I now there's no path to choose
I have to keep walking as the path closes behind me
Where am I going ?
When will I be able to choose my way? I can only see an eternity
I can only feel me
I can only hear my heart pounding

My head Is heavy
My brain is aching
I'm cracking
Surely slow and steady
I'm in Process of destruction
in so much need of construction
With every crack moving wider
I'm loosing peace going suicidal

He wrapped his arm around my back...a little lower than usual
My chills already met my neck, and oh god I hope this isn't crucial
I think I want to let it happen
I won't let it be a habit
My heart racing fast beat upon beat
My knees fall weak when our breaths meet,
His big brown eyes staring straight into mine
I'm letting his hands slide..
Only to see, what so interesting?
He whispered to me "Are you ready?"
Like the rush of my blood running through my veins
The girl in my head told me I was insane..
I let him in, I did it anyway.

And I loved every single part of it.

It burned as it went down my throat,
It was warm when It settled in
It was a rush when it finally hit me
But by that time you were in glory
Vulnerable to anything
This is not me
My blood flushes through my body faster than ment to be  
losing control, enjoying this lust
Maybe who I was isn't really who im supposed to be
I want this to be me

If the time wouldn't have been now
maybe to me he'd be different
I might believe that he and I were meant to be
my blood might pump a little faster and my knees would most likely get weak
If the time wouldn't have been now
id be blind to see
the desperate need of love from me
id be obsessed with what he could do to me