Your eyes, they were my favorite, always so glistening.
Your lips, so addicting, loving when both of ours combined.
Your hair, so extending, waves cascade down your shoulders.
Your laugh, so adorable, l could never get enough.
Your beauty, so admirable, flawless in my eyes.
Your smile, so broad, ever so appealing...
i lost it all, not once but twice, just my luck, all for the wrong price. Now i'm sitting here, throughout the rain, in an immense amount of pain. I'd take it all back if i could, take my chance without a thought. Start from the beginning, shouldve known my mind was spinning. All those late night convos, turned into short hello's and goodbye's. Not saying it's your fault, but it was me who didn't try. What happened to the walks we'd take, meet up and come home late? Late night strolls around the mall, didn't even hesitate? All my fault, i was so selfish didn't see it from your eyes. How you'd feel afterwards, me telling all these lies. I lost it all, not once but twice, just my luck, all for the wrong price. Now i'm sitting here, throughout the rain, in an immense amount of pain..

I never had a lover
Because I am too shy

I never had a lover
Because I never wanted one

I have never fired a gun
Because I never had the chance

i can no longer write
there's nothing in my head
i have purged my mind
it's know in a vacuum

i can no longer find hurt nor pain
i can no longer find heart ache that drove me insane
i can no longer find haapy thoughts along with the insane

the visios, illusions the sights of delusions there all gone
i can't even think of heaven or hell
i no longer see god as well as the devil

there's no sunshine or pouring rain's, the oceans are gone all the same
the trees, the flowers, the smells in the air, i can no lonner find them they have vanished in thin air

i can no longer find love or even *** for a matter of fact
i can't even see death nor a life instead

whate am i to do now that my mind is gone
i'll sit here and cry about it
then write about it all

I am angry over all the things you can't makeup to me.
You hurled words through worlds of tinted windows and dying girls.
Lives where black men cried and wives tried to mend shattered eyes.
You promised all this love to my little boy - a place where he can sit and still be a man.
But you lost me long ago when you whispered goodnight
When you danced your white hand through the air
Promised change in the name of equality
Marched through the streets for our fallen love.
But here we are lost and late to our own sins.

I don't think I'll ever be able to get over you,
So I hope that you won't ever break me.