Like jiu jitsu my mind is in a tussle
Back and forth
Throw to grab
Submission to tap
Tap tap
My mind is lost
My heart is victorious

Oh feeling in my chest
The irregular drumming
Like a deaf child flailing
Aimlessly
Crying
Why can't I hear?
Why am I cursed?
To never hear the sounds
That separate us from animals
To never feel those goosebumps
When that rhythm is just right
And everything feels like it
Is falling into place

Oh feeling in my chest
I grow tired of your discord
When I close my eyes
Please never beat again

Huge round drums beat within my ears
Flood my brain with debate of self hate
I sing my favorite song
They hate my favorite song
Screaming to shut down my mind,
Tempt me to hate my own voice.
It feels like I'm watching my life from-
The outside, and it's a horror show.
I just wish I was young again

Find out what made you blossom
The first time
So you can bloom not one time
But forever more

If your passion constantly shifts
It doesn't mean it isn't just as beautiful
For in the bouquet of your mind
Why would you ever only want
One flower?

Without my rose
I'm just dirt
Just dirt
Holding a stem
That used to have potential
Now instead it holds something tragic
A dark, deep, depressing thing
Something I regret dearly
It's hope

As quick as I fall in this pit
Just as quick do I climb back out

Now I must ask myself
Which of these actions is of love