Over-Complicated

Over-Complicated Apr 2019

You

I wonder so often who you are
That I forget who I am.

Over-Complicated Apr 2019

I love you so much, you wonderful perfect girl.

I don’t think you truly know just how much you mean to me.

From your giggle to your judgemental looks, you display the widest variety of perfection.

You are so sweet and so kind to everyone, regardless of if they deserve it or not. I know that I don’t deserve your presence after I put you through so much pain, but your forgiving heart has allowed me into your life.

You write the most beautiful words anywhere you can find them; a paper, your phone, my leg.

A voice that varies through my head when I think of you. A voice so wonderful that just the thought of it spread a grin across my cheeks.

The way you let me rest my head on your chest and grab my hands puts my chaotic soul at ease.

You smile at me with your adorable teeth and I know that there is not a bad bone in your body.

You are honest. You do what you believe is right. You are ssupportive and always tell me to do what makes me happy.

You have eyes the color of fall leaves that are clear as crystal in the sunlight.

You have curly brown hair that runs through my fingers like silk when I kiss your forehead.

You are so unbelievably perfect to me, and I don’t think you quite understand it.

I need you to understand just how much I love you,
You sweet,
Funny,
Beautiful
Charming
Girl.

I love you so much, you mean the world to me.

Over-Complicated Apr 2019

I Think Most Of Us Are Growing Up a Little

You’re an inconsistent lifeline that I’m constantly trying to hold on to,
An oil-soaked rope chafing against my sweaty hands.
It seems you’re only halfway here and never fully committed to being my light
But you’re here just enough to have my instant company if you want it.
I’m left with the insecurity that I’m too imperfect for your brilliance
But there’s nothing I can do and I’m kind of okay with that.
This is lyrical nonsense jumbled together in an incoherent format
But it makes me feel slightly better about myself, as I now realize that I need you to fill in the holes and crevices but I don’t need you to make the moon.

Over-Complicated Apr 2019

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I choose to ignore it,
Treat it like a bad nightmare,
But deep inside I feel it.
My worst fear rears it’s head
in my cold hidden heart-
I’m falling for you
And there’s nothing I can do about it.

Over-Complicated Apr 2019

Friends are like *******

I found happiness in a small fold of time,
Barely a corner, barely a crease,
But it was there.
One day burned in my memory,
One that I think of and remember the heat and the warmth, the passion.
It feels nice to escape my problems.
Thank you for letting me feel wanted for one night.
One night is more than I could’ve asked for.

Over-Complicated Apr 2019

Sunset

I find myself hoping-
Sometimes praying to a God I don’t believe in-
That these things will pass,
That they are just a phase.
It doesn’t always work, that’s why I have cuts and scars on my legs, and soon on my arms,
And that’s why my liver is so ****** up.
However, in the meantime,
I have some friends to keep me warm
And a family to love me.
People come and go, drift like the ocean,
And it hurts
But I’ll just keep my feet in the sand
And my eyes on the sunset.

:) thank you to those few people who have kept me going.

#friends #love #suicide #survival #scars #family

Over-Complicated Apr 2019

Took Too Long To Figure You Out.

You’re cute.
I’m interested.

You’re funny.
I’m enchanted.

You’re forbidden.
I want you even more.

You’re full of secrets.
Let me explore.

You’re hurtful.
You give me a reason to cry.

You’re ruining my life.
Let me get closer.