It's easier to supress the pain of loneliness
Its easier to hide your feelings and let them pile up
Its easier this way

But im afraid of the day Im full
Im afraid i will erupt like a volcano
Im afraid i will explode and others will flee
Im afraid i will be left alone

Love is like storm
It can fade away slowly or grow to be life altering event

Love is like hope In the darkness
It can be light
It can be safety

But for me love is only a dream

I feel lonely
I feel like I am nothing

I am sad

I have friends
But they don't give me the comfort I need

I am trembling

I dream about something or someone
I just don't know what or who

I am lost

I wonder what's wrong with me
I wonder is the world a better place without me

I am screaming

I start to wander deeper and deeper into the darkness of loneliness