The love I seek May only be just a Dream

But as long as I am alive
I will seek it with hope in my eyes

On rainy days when everything seems gray I will try to find you to brighten my day

In my dreams I see you there
So close but so far away

I will try my best to make you smile even if you wanted to cry

I will try my best to see you thrive even if you wanted to hide



I will do my best for you
even if I wanted to die

Your smile reminds me of the sun.
It brightens my life

Your laughter it's like music to my ears. It makes me forget all my problems

Your eyes blue as the ocean the waves of emotion that I feel are overwhelming

But when I am alone.
I think about you non-stop and the life I dream about us together.

Only thinking if you saw this you would think only less of me.

So I eat myself from the inside watching you from the outside

Seeing you happy, smiling, laughing


I see you like that music
I see you like that food
I see you like those clothes
I see you I know you,
But you don't even know my name

I feel lonely
I feel like I am nothing

I am sad

I have friends
But they don't give me the comfort I need

I am trembling

I dream about something or someone
I just don't know what or who

I am lost

I wonder what's wrong with me
I wonder is the world a better place without me

I am screaming

I start to wander deeper and deeper into the darkness of loneliness

Love is like storm
It can fade away slowly or grow to be life altering event

Love is like hope In the darkness
It can be light
It can be safety

But for me love is only a dream

It's easier to supress the pain of loneliness
Its easier to hide your feelings and let them pile up
Its easier this way

But im afraid of the day Im full
Im afraid i will erupt like a volcano
Im afraid i will explode and others will flee
Im afraid i will be left alone