to be honest
i'm not sure what we were
these memories are flooding my head
and there's so much i want to say
so much i want to know

do you miss me
do you see me and feel your heart ache
do you think about me before you drift off to sleep
do you you get high to forget me
or does this all not matter

i miss you more than i should
seeing you and knowing you arent mine makes me sick to my stomach
you're the first and last thought to cross my mind every day
i've tried to get high in as many ways as possible to keep my mind away from you
this all matters too much, i shouldn't feel this much

to be honest
i can't stop thinking about what we were
and if you're thinking about it too

s.s

I’m sorry
Because my ******* distract you
I’m sorry I do it on purpose,
Because I find it flattering
I’m sorry I can’t help when my pencil
Draws your face
The way my eyes draw it on the back of my lids
I’m sorry that I stare
I’m sorry that I smile, involuntarily,
Whenever I think of you
I’m sorry that you look
Far too undescretely
I’m sorry for the little fantasies
That pop up in my mind
But mostly I’m just sorry you aren’t mine

I stand alone
In a green meadow
The silence of the birds
As heavy as my heart

Across the way
I see a lone figure
Standing in a grey glen
Decorated with vulture’s cries

For once lay one clearing
But now there are two
Parted through the middle
By a single salty stream

The stream begins nowhere
And ends before the wood
In the middle a solitary stone
Causing the water to ripple

I fall in Love a little bit everyday
With someone new,
But it’s usually you
In the front of my mind

I fall in love with her lips
With his thousand watt teeth,
That make my knees go weak
With the shades of pink running
through her blonde
With the long wavy blackness
that reaches to his hips
With his soft grey’s warmth
With her slanted noir yeux
With his olive tan
With her rich coffee brown

I fall in Love a little bit everyday
With someone new
But usually it You
In the front of my mind

I fall in love with your smile
With the sun in your mouth
I fall in love with the way
That your hair parts funny in the back
With the stubble along your chin
With your perfect cream skin
I fall in love when you are kind
And when you are a ****
I fall in Love every time
That your soft brown eyes meet mine
And my stomach turns to butterflies

I fall in Love a little bit everyday
With someone new,
But usually it’s you
In the front of my mind