What is living?

I dont know.
Some people living their life with happiness
Some peole living their life with sadness
And most people living their life with both situation.
When some people think that life is just a wasting time.

They never feel like really happy
They never feel like really sad
They wanted to feel them.
How it feels like to be really happy until you smile everyday?
How it feels like to be sad until you want to end your life?

For some people, life is just wasting time
You just do everything in circle day by day,
Time by time
The exact same thing
There's no happiness, sadness, or excited over something
Their heart just empty.

Well, maybe life is not wasting time
But we are waiting time,
To die
That's okay
Maybe we can find something exciting in there
Just wait

Aren't you happy?
To see someone you loved being happy?

The moment you saw his laugh
The moment you saw his smile
The moment you felt his touch
The moment you heard his voice

Isn't that beautiful?
To be in love with someone?
Everything He did was wonderful,
Exciting to you

But,
Have you ever know?

The moment He saw your laugh
The moment He saw your smile
The moment He felt your touch
The moment He heard your voice

Did He feel them too?
The Wonderful and exciting feeling from you?

Isn't that ironic?
To be in loved with someone that doesn't love you?

How?
How is it feels like to be in love
And being loved by someone?

Monday, December 1997

i don't know you
you don't know me
we never even meet

Saturday, Christmas 1999

in the park
i was alone
you was alone
i was busy with my book
you was busy with your dog
we don't even know, that day:
we breathe the same air
God knows.

Tuesday, September 2001

my aunty Linda was giving birth
your mom was sick
i have eye contact with a guy in that hospital
you have eye contact with a girl in that hospital
we don't know we're seeing each other before
God knows.

Friday, February 2006

heavy rain, i don't care, im sad, broke up with my boyfriend.
heavy rain,  you don't care, you'd some work to do
i was slowly walking trough the rain, crying
you were fastly running trough the rain,
i seen you,
ran
and the world stop,
when that bus hit you
i came to you, still crying.
try to woke you up,
doesn't work.

Sunday, February 2006

i know your name, Alan
you don't know me
you open your eyes
you said, "what's your name?"
im Dee.
now you know my name.
you said "Thanks to save my life"
you smiled. i smiled

i thank to God.
he was opened his eyes
even for 6 hours before his died.
at least
He know my name.
God knows