Psyché dans ma chambre est entrée,
Et j'ai dit à ce papillon :
- « Nomme-moi la chose sacrée.
« Est-ce l'ombre ? est-ce le rayon ?

« Est-ce la musique des lyres ?
« Est-ce le parfum de la fleur ?
« Quel est entre tous les délires
« Celui qui fait l'homme meilleur ?

« Quel est l'encens ? quelle est la flamme ?
« Et l'organe de l'avatar,
« Et pour les souffrants le dictame,
« Et pour les heureux le nectar ?

« Enseigne-moi ce qui fait vivre,
« Ce qui fait que l'oeil brille et voit !
« Enseigne-moi l'endroit du livre
« Où Dieu pensif pose son doigt.

« Qu'est-ce qu'en sortant de l'Érèbe
« Dante a trouvé de plus complet ?
« Quel est le mot des sphinx de Thèbe
« Et des ramiers du Paraclet ?

« Quelle est la chose, humble et superbe,
« Faite de matière et d'éther,
« Où Dieu met le plus de son verbe
« Et l'homme le plus de sa chair ?

« Quel est le pont que l'esprit montre,
« La route de la fange au ciel,
« Où Vénus Astarté rencontre
« À mi-chemin Ithuriel ?

« Quelle est la clef splendide et sombre,
« Comme aux élus chère aux maudits,
« Avec laquelle on ferme l'ombre
« Et l'on ouvre le paradis ?

« Qu'est-ce qu'Orphée et Zoroastre,
« Et Christ que Jean vint suppléer,
« En mêlant la rose avec l'astre,
« Auraient voulu pouvoir créer ?

« Puisque tu viens d'en haut, déesse,
« Ange, peut-être le sais-tu ?
« Ô Psyché ! quelle est la sagesse ?
« Ô Psyché ! quelle est la vertu ?

« Qu'est-ce que, pour l'homme et la terre,
« L'infini sombre a fait de mieux ?
« Quel est le chef-d'oeuvre du père ?
« Quel est le grand éclair des cieux ? »

Posant sur mon front, sous la nue,
Ses ailes qu'on ne peut briser,
Entre lesquelles elle est nue,
Psyché m'a dit : C'est le baiser.

It’s very quiet now
My sobbing has subsided to small gasps.
My face is wet and needs a drying but
I have no tissue and the air's
Too still and close to do the job.
It’s dark outside and even darker inside
Where the corner begs me to come huddle
And the blue screen mocks my efforts
To concoct a riddle that will save me.
I’ve tried every single thing I know
To find a way to change the past
But it remains immutable,
And I am locked inside
The Amber of regret
9/17/20

Always a country lad was I,
and in the country I’ll hope to die,
for there’s nothing like solitude
found in a land, ruggedly rude,
which thrives about and around.
Where spiritual serenity found,
is removed from noise and bustle
of the endless metropolitan hustle,
that chases and constantly chivvies
office workers and menial skivvies,
who chase a hopeless dream.
All part of the urban scheme
that promises followers gold,
if they trample the lesser bold!
Me?  I let the world go by,
as I idly sit and gaze at the sky,
to watch fleecy clouds pass on.
I blink.  Suddenly they’re gone!
I never wonder as  to where they went:
what of their destination or their portent?
for I know others will follow as before,
as I spend hours doing nothing more
than watching, enjoying the day.
Such is this country lad’s way!
Some say I’m wasting my life,
but hours spent free from strife
I’d say with all honest sincerity,
have made my life, in all verity,
a journey of lasting pleasure.
With special moments, I treasure,
captured in my hours of solitude,
I allow no one or thing to intrude
that might spoil my sacred reverie.
This is the life well suited to me,
and not one I’ll swap readily
until I go to eternity - happily!
Until that day, I’ll be content
to see my hours and days spent
in the serious consideration
as to what in all creation,
I’d do if I were city bred?
The very thought hurts my head:
how would I endure the noise?
Now as thinking upsets my poise,
I’ll quietly ruminate again today,
and listen to what nearby birds say
in their knowing country way!
Yes, I’m glad to be a country lad,
for rustic ways ain’t so bad,
and as I regard haste a crime,
I take each day in slow time.
There is much more I could say,
but feel I’ve said enough today!

Rhymer. September 17th, 2020.

Choking on a grape that wasn't mine,
I shouldn't have plucked it from the gardens vine.
Under the starry linen draped above,
I noticed a dragonfly nearby
sitting on a fountain watching me die.
Asphyxia was kicking in,
looking up it seemed the moon did grin.
I closed my eyes for the end to begin
and amongst the darkness inside of me
the dragonfly was buzzing free.
It left behind a silver trail,
swirling up and through the veil,
behind which I could finally inhale,
the infinite taste of wine.

cw: domestic abuse

Despite being a girl,
I’ve always liked
video games
with the

bright colors,
challenges,
stories, and
heroes.

I used to prefer books
as I had more imaginary freedom
over the characters and scenery
until I learned my mom was screaming for him to stop.

But really,
the sound effects in video games
are amazing.
I feel like I’m my character!

Moreover, the music
for this game
makes me feel like
I really can save the world.

If I can save
their world,
then why can’t I
save ours?

I’ll study well,
make a vaccine,
save endangered wildlife from extinction,
solve world hunger.

I want to be a nameless hero
just like my favorite characters
who do it simply out of responsibility
instead of fame or fortune.

If I just
leave
my bedroom…
Can I really do anything

if I can’t even
save
my mom
from one man?

"Save the galaxy by…"
My character chimes.
No!
I’ll do it this time.

I’m done being a little kid.
I’ll save her.
But
how?

No book
video game
or class
has taught me how to save my mom.

The feelings
are returning now.
Dread, agony, and disgust materializes
as I recognize my face in the mirror.

Silence.
There is no character theme
if I disregard the sound of my mom crying.
Instead, I observe the boring figure in the mirror with no sharp angles or colors.

He left when I was deep within the pool of self-loathing,
claiming he’d get himself something to eat
as us women haven’t prepared food for weeks,
shelves bare.

When I leave my room for the first time in days,
my mom greets me with a smile,
pretending like she wasn’t just crying.
“Are you okay?” I ask.

“Sweetheart,” she says, voice wavering.
I can smell him on her.
“Do you mind making him food to eat?”
“No.” I reply as I peer into the empty cupboards.