You, honey
You are so beautiful.
You are the one I want to be with forever
You,
You are so stunning.
Call me insane,
But I want to give you my life.
The way you are.
With me.
The way you look
At me.
I can't control myself.
I feel my heart thump.
It keeps going.
I cannot work up the nerve to say something.
I'm too scared you'll leave me.
And thats the point.
I'm scared
I'm scared that if I ask again
You will introduce me to hell.
I want you so bad.
But I know you will never love me.
I want to hold you,
To show you that I'm different
different
I swear.
I want you.
You don't understand.
I think about you every **** day.
Everyday I think about what we could be.
Am I a creep for that?
All these ambitions,
All these feelings
Cooped up inside this body I call my own.
I want to kiss you.
So so bad.
I want to feel what perfection feels like against my lips.
That is who you are.
Perfection.
I know you don't think so.
But no one thinks of themselves as perfect.
That's the beauty of others telling you that you are.
It lifts you.
And that's what I want to do.
I want you to feel beautiful,
Because you are
Describing you is impossible.
Yet I try so hard.
Can you see I'm struggling?
Honey,
I love you.
You will never know.
I wish I could tell you
I have.
Here.
Tonight.
This is it.
I love you
I,
Love
You.
So
God
****
Much
Do you love me?
How could you?
I'm me, right?
I am not worth your kiss.
But I still strive to meet your expectations.
**** for getting so close.
I wish,
My one wish
Is to have you
forever
Am I too much?
Has this gone too far?
I'm so afraid
But
Honey,
This is all I know how to do.

A,
This is for you,
Just wanting to let you know that using me didn't release you from your past,
What you did to me, it just shows who you are as a person and how much of a **** boy you are.
I saw you...
I wanted to run into your arms,
But you didn't even Acknowledge me
You looked at me and didn't even Smile
You completely disregarded me
like we were never a thing
Like we never happened
I tried to get you to do something
I ended up just making myself look desperate
and i found out why you acted different around me
Why you didn't flirt back
Why you hadn't touched me,
Why you disregarded my presents
When I was waiting with a rose,
I was staring at my toes
I see your shoes...
and a pair of flats,
I look up and you're smiling
down at a girl that isn't me
you leaned in and kissed her
just the same way you had kissed me
You held her waist,
The same way you held mine
You had the same smile on your face
When you had first seen me,
But I have now been replaced
with someone prettier, shorter, and just better.
I now know why I can't get over you,
Because I still care for you
We made a promise,
But I think I'm going to break my first promise
I just can't keep it anymore
My silver paintbrush has been sitting for too long
I'm glad you're happy, A.

I miss you,
but I have too much pride to say it to your face,
so I'll say it to your back
this paper
any ******* person who gets me talking about you.

**** do I miss you

When I look into your eyes, I see passion.
I see the times I haven't been there for you
The burned memories in your skin
I see the tears that have yet to be shed
And all the ones that have cascaded down your face
When looking into your eyes,
I see your burning passion
for malevolence
I see past what I see, deep within your spirit
Your unappeasable soul
I see your scars,
The cruelty behind them
In your eyes, I see you need to be loved
I see your commitment to being loyal
Your desire to have someone there for you
In your eyes,
I see you finding yourself
I see questions unanswered
In your eyes,
Your pain burns a hole in my heart
The kind that wants to embrace you for hours
The "****" in your eyes
The constant let downs
The future success
*Your eyes hold burning passions that need to be let out

Okay, so, you lead me on
And I start to fall for you
And now that something has happened
you wanna suddenly try and push me away?
I wanna talk to you because I want to ease your mind about it
but instead you ignore me
Push me aside
I'm done with boys
I thought you were different
I seriously had hope for you
Because you tell me you're different,
but in all honesty, you're the
Exact Same
Have fun with whatever it is you do.