My key doesn't work
Quite right
In the door it twists
Sometimes
Handle up
Handle down
Hit the top
And click
Still nothing
The cabinets in this room
Belong to you
If you want them to
Come in in-between times
You can
If you want to
But if the door is locked
I can't help you
It sticks
It slides
It's scrapes
I've had to ask several times for help
But they don't know how to
After I've tried so many times
They sometimes will try too
And hit the top
And turn the handle up
Then down
Twist the key
And click
And how easy they make it seem

When words taste sick
And I can't seem to
Say the things
I want to
When air is thick
And I can't breathe
The way I'm
Supposed to
When yesterday was better
Tomorrow can't be worse
When I do what I'm told to
And things still twist and turn

I remember when
You picked at your face
And I didn't realize
You were doing what I was feeling
And if I had known that it might help
I would have done it too
You and I are rare in this world created by you
We feel and think
But now you're gone
And I'm still here
Picking at my face
Like you used to do

This is
The beat
And you are the fire
They dance around you
And when they're gone
You engulf me
And you say
So confused
Why don't you dance around me

I don't get to **** up
And when I do
You don't see it
I fall in line
And you think what a weak coward
Lost in the cacophony of the insecure
Jaded and torn
And did you know I'm better than her
And you carry a badge with you that says
I'm one of you
******* and your coconut milk lattes
Pretentious over weight girl with abusive boyfriend

I
Can't
Find
My
Keys
She said so slowly
As she crumbled
Down the
Staircase
While
We stared
At her

Up and down
The streets of gold
Oh how you must feel
To know that you have gotten old
And made it to the honey fields
I see you've finally found your place
Which of course you've always known
And oh what a relief it was
to get away from home
You wave to us down here
Up in your silver throne
You invite me up
And I have to decline
I'm afraid the ladder just won't hold