it's dark in there and i can not see.
when  i step inside i feel like i'm drowning in a sea.
no one really wants me there but they say they do.
i know i'm in the wrong place.

why doesn't it work, what's wrong with me?
am i the problem, was i right? i am a mistake?
the people don't  know they don't get it.
i know i'm not alone but mentally i am.

there is no one for me i can't explain why.
i want to leave but i'm required to stay.
can someone shine a light? i cant find my way.
i've lost my will i put myself in those who care...

those people aren't there.
they're just a figment of my imagination.
i'd like to think i'm important but it always stays the same.
i'm not compatible i'm just "nice".
it's a persona i put on to make people think they like me.

it's okay....i dont wanna fit in.
its no good anyway, once you're thrown out you see the truth.
the truth isn't as satisfying as i thought it would be...
is there a point in life? if there is i'd like to see.

this poem is probably trash, it's just high-school drama.
i tried to be something but........nothing works.

Friends see it and know it's a lie
A curve is what it is, not a sign of happiness you can't deny
Kind spirit kind heart, it shields you from my dark
Everyone suspects it's all okay until I let out my vicious bark

Saving isn't what I need what I need is something to stop this craving
Makes me crazy how much i crave the attention I keep escaping
I cry a selfish tear alone silently begging for someone to come
Let them near me, the second they care I start to run
Even I don't know what I want or what I mean
Send help please or soon this knife won't be clean

Secrets I'm holding.
My head it's hurting.
My friends, they're leaving.
My sanity, it's fading.
Reality, it's fleeting.
Trust....where is it?
You told me not to share.
That I'd be dead if I dared.
You're suicidal I have to, I care.
Don't you care if I cry?
If I tell people you need help you'll leave me scattered.
But if I don't.....your soul will be shattered...

i’m not your toy. My emotions aren’t a game. But i let you use me and that’s a shame. So turn around leave me behind.  i’ll leave without you and repair my mind.
i’m damaged enough one more look could ****.
My heart is racing but my feet stay still. i want you the moment you look away.
i regret it all. i promise i won’t be so hurt, i swear i won’t fall.
i won’t give up on us i’m not a quitter. Little do i know, to you i’m just a cake that now tastes bitter.