Benita Staebell McCartney

Benita Staebell McCartney Aug 2021

Your that black
smoke...

Puffing
into the
environment,

Making it
unhealthy.

Your
devilish
way,

Became
a dance with
life and death.

Drowning my
heart in your
BullSh*t.

Your devilish
ways became
a balancing
tight rope,

To not fall
to my demise
of playing russian
Roulette with
my life.

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2021-8-1

Dark poetry
brokenhearted
Abuse emotional
abuse.

#dark #brokenhearted #abuse #emotionalabuse

Benita Staebell McCartney Aug 2021

Nourish

Garden
and nourish
ourselves,

Cutting away
the weeds...

From our
hearts and
our life,

That's toxic
and threatening
to our peace
and health.

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2021-8-1

Love yourself
heal and keep the
toxic out.

#loveyourself #nourish

Benita Staebell McCartney Aug 2021

Jagged kiss

Jagged kiss
ripping my
heart open,

You ruined
that happy
home.

I am that
run away
bride,

That runs
from dating
commitment
and marriage.

I want
nothing
to do with
marriage.

Your that
jagged kiss
I run from.

I'm happy not
being controlled
living my life
in peace.

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2021-8-1

No interest in
Marriage comment
dating abuse survivor
emotional abuse Survivor.

#dark #healing #abuse #emotionalabuse

Benita Staebell McCartney Aug 2021

Wallowing heart

Heart why
do you wallow,

Dancing with
broken tears
raging of
tornadoes🌪
agony.

In the
shadows of
the lonely
night.

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2021-7-31

Pain of the
heart agony
I hope this lets
you know your
not alone

#dark #agony #heartache

Benita Staebell McCartney Aug 2021

Power gone wrong

You wanted
to control
everything...

Treating
beautiful
human
beings,

As your
property and
possession.

Crushing their
spirits to feel
powerful.

As if they
were a helpless
bird trapped in
a cage.

And now
you've lost
that power.

Because what
is ment to be
free cannot be
caged up.

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2021-7-20

My sweet souls abuse can
be done to men and to woman it is on both
sides it happens.

So if she abused and hurt
you heal and know not all
woman are abusive and cruel like that,

And if he abused and hurt you heal knowing that not all men are abusive.

Save yourself
before you lose
your life.

#abuse #dark #emotionalabuse

Benita Staebell McCartney Aug 2021

Difficult love

I was never
difficult to
love,

You just
couldn't accept
your scars and
wounds.

And you
couldn't accept
your mistakes
as your own.

So I was
difficult for
you to love
because you
couldn't love
you.

You couldn't
heal your,

Selfishness
hatred or past
pain you just
blamed me for
your scars.

So I was
never difficult
to love because
I would of did
anything for
you...

But being
with someone
I'm not killing
myself,

And feeling
trapped no I
won't do that
anymore.

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2021-7-20

Never change yourself
if they cannot accept
you move on walk
away that isn't love.

#dark #abuse #emotionalabuse

Benita Staebell McCartney Aug 2021

Corpse bride

You would
of loved me,

If I was
your corpse
bride.

If I treated
you like Sh*t
as you did to
me.

You would
of loved me.

If I was as
dark and selfish
as you.

But I'm
not a corpse
and I'm not
selfish,

I'm too caring
and forgiving
and strong.

To be selfish
like you.

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2021-7-20

Dark abuse
Emotional abuse
Abuse awareness

#dark #emotionalabuse #abuse