I'm hopped up once again
As  this familiar euphoria
streaks through my veins
I clutch at my heart
It barely remains

It's taken the whiplash
of this addictive mix
This fickle drug it either
fulfills your wishes
Or plays tricks

Finally!...
It sets in as I throw my head back with a
Gasp
It dances in my brain
My vision dims and my body yearns
for mor(phine)
Because no matter how much it hurts

I always shoot up
I can't get enough (i cant get free)
I always want (need) more
Cuz im hopelessly addicted
(please just end me...)
Cuz I cant live without
Your love
My addiction
My drug

Here...
Ill take it.
However you give it.
Over and over again
(Until it finally kills me...)

Open. (Wrong one) close
Open. (not here) closing
knock. its locked (dang)
keep on searching (your never gonna find it)
I've got to find it (yea but you wont)
but there are so many (well of course)
Doors (what'd you expect? an open window to glance through?)
which to choose (your not yet ready)
How to find the right one? (you already know)
I cant be looking forever (but you will if you must)
This labyrinth...Which one to trust? (neither will do)
My head or my heart? (theres more than those two)
Is it this one here? (nope just another black end)
Slam
This is impossible. I'll never find it (your looking in all the wrong places)
How? (your looking out for something you carry within)
This door in my chest? (you tell me)
Here I go...
Now that I've found it...what do I see? (I don't know)
(What were you looking for?)

Tick. Tock.
The clock is breathing (but not for you...)
Tick. Talk.
Those markings we can't live without (not me...not you)
Tick. Tock.
It marks your spot in time (ha! your going to die! Stupid...)
Tick. Talk.
The clock mercilessly keeps going (it's not me who's going to burn. It's you! It's you!)
Tick. Tock.
It's face expressionless (it doesn't care...no one does)
Tick. Talk.
Climbing and falling around and back down (you can't stop it...not now, not ever!)
Tick. Tock.
And getting back up each morn and nightbreak (but, not this time...not for you)
Tick. Talk.
Time to get going (you won't come back)
Tick. Tock.
You will miss our date (your about to crack)
Tick. Talk.
You should really hurry (your no longer on your way)
Tick. Tock.
Your running out of time (your really running away)
Tick. Talk.
It's getting away (no...not really)
Tick. Tock.
She won't wait (your word must be kept)
Tick. Talk.
She's coming for you (to collect her payment)
Tick. Tock.
Run. Run RUN (theres no point)
Tick. Talk.
You can't escape (I already tried)
Tick. Tock.
She's right behind you (what a surprise)
Tick. Talk.
Your not going to make it (your about to die)
Tick. Tock.
Your frantic to escape (ha...don't bother)
Tick. Tock.
But you never can see her (I couldn't either)
Tick. Tock.
No matter which shoulder you look over (she's not chasing you)
Tick. Tock.
And through the back your run (it only seems that way)
Tick. Tock.
And before you hit the ground (don't get me wrong your dead)
Tick. Tock.
Your death as payment (you sold your soul...you were always hers to take)
Tick. Tock.
And crumple in a pool of your own lifeblood (Yep your really gone)
Tick. Tock.
The clock strikes the zero hour (your time had come)
Tick. Tock.
And keeps right on breathing (Cuz you? You were nothing...)
Tick Tock
Tick Talk
Tick Tock
(Just like me...)

I almost told you today.
I am so tired of not telling you.
I changed the subject, I averted eye contact, I stayed strong.
We talked about your favorite Disney movie and the way I talk to my radio and we laughed.
I walked home alone.
I poured a glass to forget having to look away.
I am so tired of not being yours.
I love you and I almost told you today.