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Antoine Smith May 2016
I sit.
My inner turmoil transitions seamlessly to a rolling boil.
Yearning to reach out for someone.
Longing to comfortably land on a shoulder.
Crying out for an ear to listen.
A voice from the turmoil sounds out from beyond the darkness in my mind.
"That someone will drop you."
"You'll only land in fire."
"All ears are deaf to you."
I sit.
Im the only one who thinks im weak
Antoine Smith May 2016
I cant wait to die
Antoine Smith Feb 2016
We sit and we pray
Eventually some day
We will find our way
Antoine Smith Jan 2016
Up and down.

The amusement park ride that is my mind yet again has shorted out.
Countless laps through peaks and valleys.
I pray for a reprieve as i feel the nausea rear its head.

I want to stop

Consistent sadness would be sweeter than this inability to be grounded.
Ive found no better way to exhaust myself than to let myself think.

Most minds run wild and lose sleep to their paranoia.
Mine cant even keep pace.
Im up. It sees me. Im down.
Antoine Smith Jan 2016
Trust.
A lie to ourselves.
We blindfold our fears.

— The End —