It was a lonely night,
Hearing those rain drops at the roof,
As i decided to scroll a facebook page,
"Maria"
Going to her older post,
Older post
Older post
Till I reach this letter of her,
Dear Z,
Here's the line.
I'm drawing this 'cause I badly need one:
To remind me that you'll never be mine,
'Cause I fear that loving someone so much will destroy me.
For me to always remember how you give your time to me but you're texting with her simultaneously.
To mark my words, that I will leave this place, this city where I met you; and
To remember how I pictured you on your wedding day with her,
You couldn't just be happier.
Chasing you,
Maria.
Never I know,
That was an old letter of her
to my boyfriend.

Dear diary.  May 12 . Friday.
"Gettin' up was the first mistake I made today
Maybe if I'd stayed in bed I wouldn't hurt this way
For now I'll have to face the world admit that we're all through
And begin my first day without you."
I wake up today with dry tears and punch of eyebags.
Scrolling my phone.  And here again,  i received a text from him saying "im tired" i cant help but burst tears again.  So i decided to off my social media's. And to be brave to blocked him to avoid bursting my tears again.  Cause i know,  you will never come back again and i cant do anything but to see you walking away.  
Diary,  now,  i have to fixed my things. Cause ill be leaving far away today with a heavy heart.

You cut out my eyes.
You fed me with lies.
And now I can never see again.

I wish I were made of stone
So your words would never hurt me
I wish I were cold as ice
Then maybe I wouldn't be lonely

I wish I were made of steel
So my strength would never waver
If only I could turn back the clock
To a time when I felt safer

But I'm only flesh and bone
And your words have left me bleeding
My heart is torn apart
It's a wonder it's still beating

You made up your mind
Given me your final answer
What we shared is in the past
Time to write a brand new chapter

I will fix my broken heart
Some how piece it back together
It may never be the same
It'll bare this scar forever

But I'll be strong, I'll be alright
Though I'm not as hard as steel
And I can't turn back the clock
In time....my heart will heal

Don't speak harshly,
Your words will form swords in me

Touch my cheek; speak gently,
And they will form worlds in me