My coffee got cold
as I sat and took
a big scary test,
that I passed all of,
except for the portion I failed.
I sipped the cold sweet latte
for comfort,
and the room temperature
liquid
washed over me.
It was snowing,
and the wet icy flakes
stung my face as I walked
to my favorite used clothing store.
I walked out again
with a luxurious pair
of twelve dollar jeans,
and a few shirts.
I splurged thirty-five
painful
dollars.
My now boyfriend
saw my ex boyfriend
walking the grounds of his college,
a rude text massage
and I knew he was there to stay.
Confirmation of my failed math test
echoed in my ears
as I talked to a very nice lady
on the phone.
Only a few minutes later
and the words of my mother
sound in my ears
telling me she made a mistake
again,
and I have to figure out
an insurance plan
on my own,
and she doesn't know how to advise me
either.
I cried into my salad
that I'm only eating
because
I hate my body,
and I feel like no one
can love me with it.
Cold coffee,
failed tests,
no money,
clothing that should be cheap
and was too expensive for me.
Worry
in every much needed expense.
Hunger in my belly
and hoping it will shrink.
It's just been a bad day.