Being in love with life,
with love.
Love for living things.
Nature, music,
You,
who I haven’t met yet.
Like
a melody I haven’t heard yet.
Warming my heart already,
making me happy.
Just waiting to be born.

And there I was, in a colorful world.
Listening to the song of
nature.
Watching all kinds of animals and all kinds of people together in harmony.
Wondering where all the water was.
Then I recognized you.
You are my mother.



Shell ✨🐚

Standing in the shadow of life.
I watch others flourish in warmth of light.
Happy to be part of this wonderful world.
Full of color and sound.
Giving me peace just being.
Enjoying all little things,
miraculous and beautiful.
I’m mourning but still
blooming from gratitude,
living inside of me.
For everything that is and was.


Shell.✨🐚

Then all the lights went out.
Silence.
I saw all stars above.
Heard the sounds of nature.
A white bird flying in the dark.
Coocoo calling owl, dogs barking.
Baby cry from afar.
I was at peace.
I had the light within .




Shell✨🐚

In early morning dew,
Under velvet see through
veil.
I saw my moon
sleeping like a baby.
Dreaming of a
lazy sun
to get up soon.
To brighten this new day.

Thank You for just another day.




Shell ✨🐚

I have all this love
And nowhere to put it
It's rotting inside me
Soft,warm
Unspent.

I reach out in dreams
But wake up alone
His name buried in my throat
Like a secret
I was not allowed to say.

He didn't stay
But the love did
And now it grows wild
Inside a heart
With no one left
To give it to.

I wake up with weight
Bt not from pain
Just the heaviness
Of feeling nothing.

I search my chest
Like someone lost their keys
Bt there's no spark
No trace of warmth.

Just silence
Where love used to echo
Now even the ache
Has gone quiet.

happiness
to me
was her laugh
spilling into my lap
like sunlight --
warm.
and mine,
before i i knew
i needed it,
needed her.

Before I met my wife
I was incomplete
Now I'm finished.

I lie
and
I lie
and
I lie

I hide my behavior
to keep you safe.

I keep quiet
not to offend you.

I agree with you
to keep you happy.

I walk on eggshells
for you and
it’s never enough.

I lie
and
I lie
and
I lie

but when the truth
arrives at that
final moment;

jaws will drop
plates will shatter
dogs will growl

and
you’ll be long gone
after seeing what
a ghastly beast
I am

but for now

I lie
and
I lie
and
I lie

to keep us
together.