You do not appreciate me till I am gone
Then you can do what you want
With my words
With my life
Play my corpse
Like a marionette
Interpret as you see fit
Because I am not a genius
Till I am dead
And I can mean what you said

I want to go home
To my real home
The home that I have good memories
The home where I lost everything
I want to sleep in my room
Where I would wake up happy
The home where I had all my family
I know they're gone
But I want to wake up
And remember I had
Everything

My head hurts
Oh, how it pains me
Oh, how you pain me with your presence

Cant you see what you are doing to me?
Cant you believe things for yourself?
Why do you let them sway your opinion of me?

Forget that I am here
Forgive me for my faults
Transcend all things like God...  I dare you.

Secretly, plotting revenge within the realm of my existence
Hoping that all things will come to an end
Favoring my thoughts, severing all ties.

Her love shines like
a sunset through venetian blinds,
leaving me stripped
and striped with shadows and light.

Her love is the knife dissecting
my spine one vertebrae at a time.

I hope she likes
what I really am inside,
because I spill my guts
just to hear her sigh.