There are times it's a struggle to reach me,
Theres a light on but no ones home.
Its difficult to explain, hard for others to see
I know I'm not but there are times I feel so lost, so alone.
I want to live by the rule you have nothing to prove, I try to make myself not care.
But it seems that part of me is stronger,
A losing battle which isn't going anywhere.
Tried to draw a new line, then crossed that one too. My heart rules my head,
Though when it comes to generosity these 2 are best friends.
In the moments where I feel relaxed & happy
I cling to them knowing I'll have to wait for more. I know there has to be an end,
Yet its other people/ other matters which now have me floored.
