Jul 2014
fill my lungs with smoke
I light cigarettes,
in hopes that i will forget you.
i cant
I light cigarettes,
in hopes that the smoke will wash away your scent.
spices and vanilla
I light cigarettes,
in hopes that i will forget how you tasted.
coffee and bagels
I light cigarettes,
in hopes that the fires i start will burn a hole in my memory so i can forget the colour of your eyes, or how they gleamed like sapphires.
i still see the sapphires
And the truth is,
i cannot forget you,
Or how you smelled like spices and vanilla,
Or how every morning when i kissed you and you’d taste like the bagels and coffee that you had,
Or how your eyes are the centre of my universe, and how they glimmer like distant stars a million light years away.
These cigarettes are not enough,
they do not intoxicate me as much as my thoughts of you do.
And even if i tried to drown myself in the deepest oceans,
or if i tried to throw myself off the highest buildings,
i will never, never, be able to forget you.
fill my lungs with smoke
I light cigarettes,
in hopes that i will forget you.
i cant
I light cigarettes,
in hopes that the smoke will wash away your scent.
spices and vanilla
I light cigarettes,
in hopes that i will forget how you tasted.
coffee and bagels
I light cigarettes,
in hopes that the fires i start will burn a hole in my memory so i can forget the colour of your eyes, or how they gleamed like sapphires.
i still see the sapphires
And the truth is,
i cannot forget you,
Or how you smelled like spices and vanilla,
Or how every morning when i kissed you and you’d taste like the bagels and coffee that you had,
Or how your eyes are the centre of my universe, and how they glimmer like distant stars a million light years away.
These cigarettes are not enough,
they do not intoxicate me as much as my thoughts of you do.
And even if i tried to drown myself in the deepest oceans,
or if i tried to throw myself off the highest buildings,
i will never, never, be able to forget you.
fill my lungs with smoke
originally written on my private blog on the 22nd of june 2014 chatoyantailurophile.wordpress.com
