And there is the stillness of the endless sleep Tucked deep beneath the winter’s snow Curled within the thickness of the earth Released from sadness Released from pain
Released
Released
Released
A consciousness freed to slip Back into that vast ocean from whence it came, Just like the way that stars exchange their lives in one, Final dispersal of glorious light, For the welcoming silence of a galactic night.
But then there is this cry That falls and cuts hard and long right down the inner backbone of My soul And how it screams, “No!”
And how in one, single moment, I know with such clarity that
I don't want to go.
And I can barely hold all of this love In my hands And I grasp at it while it overflows like a raging river and I am Clutching at Each precious memory, Soaked in the undeniable surety
That I love all of this more than I could ever say
And I want to save each fractured second of it all; Tiny arms around my neck Mommy goodnight The way the snow glints off the distant, highest peaks As the new Dakota sun begins to climb And the way I can snake my steps along ridges lined with conifers And find the highest rocks, Climbing to where the hawks glide below In the open spaces above the cliffs Where the alpine slopes roll and roll To horizons made of crimson sunset and gold.
And I know that this is home;
Like the first notes plucked of the most beautiful chord,
Or the way my breathing ebbs and flows Like a gentle river that the painted mountains hold In a quiet grace When I lay my face Against your chest
Or every time I hear your voice.
And I want to hold on To all of this And I don’t want to let go And how can I ever rip the very fabric of my soul And just fade away,
Let go?
Every fiber of my being screams out “no!”
There are times that slap me in the face and make me realize how soul shatteringly much I don't want to lose; how desperately I love.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wriI9cCCfXo "I began to hear my name And silence in a hurricane The dust was leaving from my veins Like some forgotten border train Carried to my home again"