Why did I let this happen?

My beating heart started pounding
Electricity sparked through every vein
A fire started in my brain
Till my system was overriding

Everyday I needed you to leave
My pounding heart wanted you to remain
With no sense left I became insane
Arteries exploded and you let me bleed

And for what?

I remember laying there almost dead
Mom's words entered my conscious thoughts
About how you were seriously flawed
Though I tried hard to forget it

But guess what?

I still want you back.