I've come to find life fills me with a strong disinterest
And I don't care much for love that lasts too long
I live so complicated, most live simplest
But when things are smooth, I feel like it's all wrong

I fill my body with substances galore
I guess I'm trying to fill a void or five
But when I take something, I need much more
So I will know that I am still alive

**** and ***** are great, but I'm not happy
I guess I need some stronger things, tonight
I drank ten beers, and now I'm feeling sappy
So I need something to make me feel right

I bought some acid from my neighbor, but it's weak ****
So I'm taking a few dozen mushrooms, too
And if I take anything else, will I still feel it?
Or am I floating in this emptiness from you?

I guess we'll see if I still make it out, tomorrow
But if I don't, will you relay this to my mom?
"There's only so much from this world that I can borrow,
but your hate explodes in me daily like a bomb."

And I would like to thank my father and my sisters
For all the love that they have traded me for art
Although my brain and love have been destroyed by twisters
I do the best I can to fake a beating heart

My brain is spinning and it's just the way I like it
My heart is racing, but there is no finish line
And I've spun out, but it's okay to feel like ****
As long as you love to hate, you'll be just fine