I'm atychiphobic,
I'm afraid
of not being good enough
to be a relationship
with a specific person.
Everyone,
or everything,
I ever cared about
end up destroyed
and I can't
let that happen to him,
not to him.
It's not fair.

--          --

I'm afraid
and that's killing me
because
it doesn't matter
how much is my desire
to be with you
I can't allow myself,
or that fear,
to hurt you;
that would be way too much
and I will never
forgive myself.