I've always been a dreamer
Take a walk with me
I'll show you what it's like
To see colours so vivid, it attacks your senses
To picture stories that can entertain for hours
To make the world a canvas of your mind

You're down to earth.
Practical.
Pragmatic.
Rational.
Take me on a walk
I want to see the world through your eyes
You see the world as it is
Yet you find the beauty in it

Teach me your secrets and I'll teach you mine

In a sea of unfamiliarity
Your face was one
that caught my eye

NOT in a sense you'd think

I felt as if I already knew you
Like reaching out to
my mirrored self
An invisible force pulling me
towards you
Overwhelmingly irresistible

I want to know you
Every. Little. Detail
Every. Insignificant. Happening
Everything that encompasses
The individual
that is you

Whenever you're near
I sense your presence
The calling of a soul
to another

There's something about you
that's just so  **intriguing

Opening slowly in soft whispers
Blooming with crescendos and riffs
Reaching a passionate frenzy
**Till death stills all

There are those days
When you just wander around aimlessly
Shrouded in hazy daydreams
letting your feet take you places
It is on such journeys
that you end up there
Again

The path so familiar
calling to your inner desires
Against my better judgement
there I was
Again

My dark paradise
Where I was the happiest
Where I endured pain
and suffered loss
like I have never done
Before

Admitted into the heart of it all
Now looking in
as an outsider

She was beautiful
He clearly thought so too
as his fingers traced the contours of her face
Looking at her with so much
love and adoration

Perhaps
even more than he ever did
with me

I stood there
Frozen
A ****** of another's love
I should have left
But the pain
was better than **numbness

She was a beautiful girl
radiant and bright
A freshwater pearl
glowing with inner light

The world tried to beat her down
Submit to the gloom and despair
in jealousy and hatred she drowned

Her glow masked by the water
murky and dark
She fought hard against the saltwater

I saw her dying
slow and tortuous
And sent a knife flying
in mercy

I buried her in a coffin
filled with roses, tulips, lilies and
other flowers whose names
I have long forgotten

I placed her coffin in my heart
the only warmth left in my body
With every beat
my heart aches

I think of the girl
who was too good for the world

Another mistake
Another mishap
Adds up to the wrongdoings of humans
The number keeps increasing

Humanity tried hard to be perfect
Unable to accept that we are but flawed creatures

Truth be told
Accidents and mistakes help us progress
For the greatest inventions were creations of accidents
And mistakes the secret of knowledge

I am a coward
I dare not confess my heart
For fear of rejection
I don't wish to spoil the friendship we have

Declaring love
is more courageous than facing a hungry lion
I long to tell you so bad
Yet fear is holding me back
I hope someday, I can find my courage
Before, it is too late

I always grew up telling  myself
Never take drugs
For addiction is inevitable

Now I discovered a new drug
LOVE
So addictive that I can't help but rely on it
I need my daily fix
Just like a regular ******

However, we are occupied with our life
To take time aside to spend together
I feel the withdrawal symptoms
The intensity nearly killing me
But I never regretted taking love in the first place

I didn't know the difference between need and want
To me they were so similar
Like pink and red
What I wanted, I needed
It was only recently that I realised what need truly is
I can function and live without what I want
Like that new cute dress I so wanted

However without what I need
I feel life is pointless
I need you right now baby
Right here next to me
I miss you
You were the missing piece to my broken soul
I need you so bad baby
For I love you

I am falling in love
Even for someone as socially clueless as me
I can see the evident signs
Yet fate be so tragic
For we are separated by the oceans
So far, miles apart
I barely know what you look like
I don't think I care anymore

I finally met someone just like me
Its like we are telepathic
We feel the same about this world
Oh how I wish I lived near you

I love the way you think
I love the way you message me
I know it sounds rather peculiar
I too never thought it was possible to fall in the virtual cyberspace
Till I met you

I have never felt this way before
Two polar opposites
Depression and happiness
Its usually dark gloomy depression
Or sunny bright happiness
I was always used to such extremes
But for the first time have I ever felt both at the same time
The intensity dragging me down
I am so confused

I can't sleep at night
I am such a sorry plight
You stole away my heart
And you soon had to depart
My will to live crumbled apart
My soul you understood by heart

The fates three must have been jealous
For your acquisition they were rather zealous
Fairytale endings are but lies
In reality they never do come by

The leather caresses my back
You are my luscious snack
That which I lust after
Yet quite hate it thereafter
You remind me of my weakness
And teach me to forgo my meekness
The scars on my back never fade
Just like my other friend the blade

I see my best friend lying by the side
The liquid of life a little crusted and dried
The shiny gleam of it underneath the pain it buries
The shiny silver now a deep shade of berry
I'm never alone when I am with you
And I can never leave you
You always come through unlike others
You always work wonders
I will always love you
My precious taboo

I don't derserve any form of indulgence
Rather I have much to penance
I can't yearn and long for that which I'm not worthy
My life's goals all set in stone yet so very blurry
Even death is not a luxury I can want
For my life is already lost

Falling in love
is never gentle
Like being thrown in the middle of a hurricane
Feet lifted of the ground
Barely breathing through extreme emotions
Drowning in a vast ocean
I never regretted falling
When your arms are there to catch me

I miss your jokes
The way your face would light up
The way you kissed me
Leaving me so very breathless
You were the blazing fire in my life
And just like fire you have consumed me
Drowning in passion and agony
I await your return my love

So easily broken
What you had spoken
Seemed useless to you
But when I said adieu
You told me to wait
Promising to stay straight
Yet another promise
Waiting to be broken
I hope you have really changed
If not I might just go deranged

Why are you so possessive
Turning so very aggressive
Can't I be friends with both
Then I shall take an oath
Never to befriend anyone
I hate everyone
If you don't trust me
From your life I shall flee
Never looking back
Don't bother following in my tracks

Teachers are the guiding light
Who help us take flight
Though at times stern
You shower us with care and concern
The knowledge you share with us
Helps us progress
You will always have our respect
Regardless of the subject

She fed everyone lies
And now she has no real ties
Living in her deluded world
Unaware of what she did
How can you be evil
If you think youare truly good
I would sincerely help you
If only you would turn true

Is this feeling positive or negative?
Sometimes it spurs me on
Sometimes it drives me to madness
So what do I do?
Can I live without stress
But isn't that the same as aimless
I therefore conclude
Stress is confusing

If I am nice, people take advantage
If I hold back, I am called cruel
If I smile, I'm taken for a fool
If I frown, they think I am rude
If I act, you want me to be honest
But if I am honest, I become the mean girl
I am sick of living in a judgemental world
But how do we change
Because to us, first impressions count
**WE HUMANS ARE THE WORST

My hubris prevented me from seeing it
I thought I was always a step ahead
I now realise I was two steps behind
She used my innoncence, the most precious of my gifts
I now realise
The closer I look
The less I see

I remember my first year
so eager, so happy
Grinning from ear to ear
Forging new friendships
And soon we were joined at the hips
Gaining new knowledge and skills
Absorbed like water through gills


But soon my fairytale turned bad
My mind started going mad
My friends stabbed me in the back
And my heart is now cracked
This second yaer is a nightmare
My plan backfired right there
If only my life would rewind
From life I want to **resign

Why is it that just the very thought of him
Gets me overwhelmed
Every night I dream of him
But no matter how hard I chase
I can never hold his hand
For he is fictional

I thought I could trust her
She played me for a fool
And used me as a tool
My trust is now broken
Just like my fragile heart
I will never be whole again
I now trust no one

I wished to remain neutral
Like Switzerland
For how could I choose one
When the other would be hurt
Must I be cold and critical
or follow my heart
For either way
I'm doomed

Each failure is like a slap
Leaving a stinging red mark
I cry inside
My heart bleeding
No matter how hard I try
I seem to fail
I might as well stop now
End my life here
Its all my fault
For all its worth
I know I tried

Truth is never whole
Always diluted with lies
Does it make it untrue?
or is it just *human

I thought I could trust her
She played me for a fool
and used me like a tool
My trust is now broken
Just like my fragile heart
I will never be whole again
I trust no one

I wish to remain neutral
Like Switzerland
For how could I choose one
When the other would be hurt
Must I be cold and critical
or follow my heart
For either way
Im doomed

Each failure is like a slap
Leaving a stinging red mark
I cry inside
My heart bleeds
No matter how hard I try
I seem to fail
I might as well stop now
End my life here
Its all my fault
For all its worth
I know I tried

Truth is never whole
Always diluted with lies
Does it make it untrue
Or is it just human

Love and hate
May seem so apart
But without one
Can another exist
Light and dark
Without darkness where is the light
**Without hate there is no love

Tick tock
Tick tock
My life runs by a clock
When 12 strikes
The heart breaks
And the mind aches

Love is destruction
Hope is resurrection
Cities were built
And people were killed
All in the name of *love