Breathe into my lustful thoughts and ill show you my submissive being
Embrace my skin like rose petals, nourish me with your tongue
I want to expose my ****** spirit to yours and intertwine our heat.
I crave.
I crave you.
I just really ******* crave something that will feed the hunger that lives inside me.
Something that will rise my eagerness to a level of no return.
I want to experience the unthinkable.
Allow your hands to be gentle when you grab onto my desires.
Dance through the fire that flickers between my brain cells.
Please make pleasure ride along my senses, cause a scream to rise in my throat.  
I want it.
I want it so badly that the destination between my thighs cries out for it.
Satisfy me.
Please.

If only I had a chance.
To do something meaningful.
To save a life
Or inspire greatness.

But I'm not that kind of person.

I'm not ambitious enough
To do something meaningful.
To make a difference.
To have the world remember
Not me, but what I did.

I'm not helpful enough
To save a life.
The world is too full anyway.
I'd never make enough sense
To even save anyone.

I'm not good enough
To inspire greatness.
I'm not a good person.
And I hate public view
So I don't think about standing up.

I'm not that person.

I haven't been since lower school.
When I still dreamed big.
When I still loved wonder.
When I was afraid of storms
And the boogeyman lived close by.

That person no longer exists.
If only I could go back
To make sure that person lived.
But by doing that
I'd erase me. And everything I am.

I have my friends
But I'm so lonely
I have a dog
But I'm so lonely
I have my siblings
But I'm so lonely
I have my parents
But I'm so lonely
I don't have you
And I'm so lonely

Caught in the act
of being young
and sneaking out
to see the stars

Caught in the act
of being in love
with everything except
one person

and that's beautiful.

You make me feel
The love and the lightning
Fire in the sky
Panic and parade

Tin roof lullaby
Rain drip drop
Snare drum roll
One after another

When the thunder cracks
I go and hide
Inside myself
How can I not

I am so small
One single drop
Amongst thunderstorm

*** and cigarettes and bad decisions stained into bedsheets
A good idea gone rogue in a moment by the chase and retreat
Words bitten off before they emerge and a sudden sense of regret
The ins and outs and turns and twists confined to breakup ***.

What feels good can't hurt you until its not good anymore
Reality doesn't touch the bedroom until someone opens the door
Grasping to skin like it's what we had and reluctantly letting go
The push and pull of dumb ideas and a lack of self control.

An awkward smile all the while thinking that this was a mistake
A peck of a kiss, barely a touch of the lips, and sanity far too late
Stains on the skin that the shower can't wash, they've soaked down to bone
The knowledge that gasps and quiet laughs doesn't mean we aren't gone.

*** and cigarettes and bad decisions stained into bedsheets
A good idea gone rogue in a moment by the chase and retreat
Words bitten off before they emerge and a sudden sense of regret
The ins and outs and turns and twist confined to breakup ***.

somewhere out there -
i found myself

swimming with sin
with the flowerbeds
with all my friends -
with no one

somewhere out there -
i found myself

between the lines
you speak,
there is little sympathy
and i just
tell myself
i will not let
this life define
me