my breath?
ragged
tainted
untamed
uneven

billowing gusts of air

how
can it
even escape my lungs
when my
heart
jackhammers so
mercilessly?

i’m filled with nothing but
curiosity
and
intrigue

i want to be filled with nothing but
you

i want
your lips
your hair
your hands
your arms

i want
time
to explore
the
inches of your ******
surface

i want to make you feel
a way
you have never
felt
before

i am
     muscles
          quivering
       flesh
warming
        hairs
prickling

i am lost
         inside
                those
                         eyes

i am nonexistent
        when
   it comes to being
     anywhere
but
here

right now, i am...
       utterly in ecstasy

but
you
were
supposed
to
be
my
protector.

steel gates
for arms
a drawbridge heart
chain link fists

but
that
sturdy armor
turned
enemy.

abhorrent
actions
i am a
victim now
of
your
power-tripping
frenzy

but i
grapple and
try
still
to see you
for you

there’s something

at the edge of
     my
                fingertips

that
just
wants to know

sometimes
                late at night

i remember how it felt

to
    be
     locked
             in your
                    embrace

and then i feel

a little bit better