I wept for a life that was stolen I cried myself unconscious missing a golden reflection Sneaking breaths of memories trapped in the dark Like an utter fool
I gave up such a precious portion Handing over what used to be sacred While whispering words too secret to be audible Unaware of my folly
Limping through my days on crippled wings And now wincing at the knowledge of what I helped create What was once so revered, what was once so precious Has slowly slipped through these fingers
I spun in circles under the sleepy stars I let the burn envelope me Suffocating in order to believe That I wasn't just another foolish girl
I believe that I am surprisingly solitary For a woman who is continuously enveloped In a breathing, endless expectation Of the commotion outside of my head
I'm easy; yet also in pursuit Of blending ignorance with substantiation Because we all want to be on the right side of the tracks Even if it means we live a life of secret risk
In moments I become enraged That I am left without choice To call your name with no reply As if you never breathed a breath in this life
And I know that is a wicked lie Because you were one of my most intimate gasps The two of us colliding like planets out of orbit Connected in such a scarce fashion
I’ll never be me without you The day your heartbeat died My own heart shattered And all the world caved in
Too much of me There's just too much of me I wish I could drift off into the blank space of less Black and swift, calm nothingness Less is more, they say I'm inclined to agree I loathe the way it feels to remember Yet I rewind the tape And concede
If you stop and pay attention There lies an element of vibrance In the souls of caged men No one lets them in It’s a sin With a layer so thin Alive underneath their skin Disarm me with your ability To believe in me To see past the optimism To tear down the pessimism To end the skepticism And love my simple complexity It’s more than most can see A new kind of alluring And I’m set free