Untold times reaching
Out with grasping fingertips
But invisible

Because I wanted to die
And simply be no one;
While you were saying I just had to try
And screaming how the dishes are never done
Keeping me under your thumb
In this place, fettered,
Can I help it I’m so dumb,
And can hardly read a letter?
Or deign to say a word?
Or to think a thought?
What’s the point when you’re not heard?
And all your wars cannot be fought?
I want to ease the pain I keep
All the ways I try to salve
This heart, but it just seeps
Into another valve
I know you think it’s easily remedied-
For you, there’s no ambiguity,
Turn off your mind and heart
And soothe yourself with cruelty-
But I don’t you think understand
Your own platitudes, “self-worth”,
I don’t want a helping hand,
I want a different earth
To improve is to betray
My friends, who suffer in silence,
So I will stay, true to my own way,
Not abandon my one alliance
So I will not get better
I will try and get worse
This safe place, unfettered,
I’ll go embrace my curse.

Try your best
To remain unfazed
The world will test
You, leave you dazed
But you don’t have to change
In order to be free
Compromise or rearrange,
Who you want to be
Wear your heart on your sleeve
And embrace the pain
Dream a dream, make-believe,
And cast away disdain

Take these shoes, walk a mile
Wear this face, force a smile,
In this body, see through these eyes
Try my world on for size

There’s a secret path to walk
A language that nobody talks
A different world to see
Another way to be
Irrefutably

when you think all night and have no thoughts
when you try so hard and nothing works
when you sleep all day and have no dreams
when you care so much and no one cares