breathing your CO2 was better than air.

before You i was not living
You gave life to me
from the roof of my head
to the tips of my toes

unused to the sensation of genuine care

everything is vibrant and colorful when We are together
but when We're apart i'm drowning.

suffocating in the oxygen

You bleed me with your smile,
tantalizing my soul to a new level;
immortality.

You hurt me with your words,
mending up my broken heart;
absurdity.

To be honest,
I dont even know why,
am I deluding myself to this insanity?

I dont know why,
yet I want to know
everything about you,
except the answer.

It is too complicated,
the complexity of me and you
to exist as a whole,
it is less than a possibility.

For us to be together,
for infinity.

It is fine,
I will just wake myself up everyday,
hoping for you to miss me,
hoping for your love to warm my cold world,
frozen by the deep chill of misery and agony.

It's a haunting feeling...
Knowing there's nothing I want more in this world than to be huddled under yours blankets right now,
breathing against your chest,
Your touch coaxing me to sleep

I would like to thank the hands
The ones I held on to as I fell
The hands that pushed me down into the dirt
The hands that lifted my soul from the depths of this darkness.

I would like to thank the mouths
That have fed me the lies and the truths
That have showed me the way to the light
That have kissed and bitten the pain and the scars.

And I thank all those words, so many words,
In the songs and the poems and the stories
That have made me feel like I’m not alone,
That have given me strength like nothing else can.

And I thank you,
The embodiment of everything I wanted
For standing there, an ode to the possibility
Of being happy and satisfied and exhausted
And screaming and hugging and kissing and laughing
And loved.  And seen.  And nothing in between.

My heart was found guilty
Of witchcraft by my brain
He dragged her and beat her
Spewed his hatred for her
Tied her to a wooden stake

My brain couldn't comprehend
The magic of my heart
Why she never wavered
How she always loved
He started this persecution
Because he couldn't understand

I always felt her growing
Beautifully and powerfully
With every beat she won me over
All I did was want to protect her
But my brain called it heresy

My punishment was to watch
As he burned her alive
I heard the shrieks of hope die
The smell of her love stung
My nostrils and it haunts me still

I walk around pretending
As if nothing had ever happened
My brain condemned me to live
This life without my heart
Without the love and only
With the memory of that night

Every day I burn like she did
As every day I hate like he did
I was unable to convince him
That she just wanted to love
But my brain was too afraid
Of the powers of my heart