your arms pinned back
pushing your body into mine
dark thing that i am
cobalt black mouth hollow
a tongue of rust
drunk on your shuttering sonorous howls

i am to wrong to be forgiven

driven by fires rod
i am cracked glass
a switchblade
under dark cast *******
a black light
trapped in your warmth

my fangs gleam
cleavers bright
blades of light
and shake silver
ready to pry blood throat
your raw mouth open
a naked kiss

and then you fall
flying

when we where in love
i had the wings of an angel

now my wings
shredded
flapping
fast and hard
yet
unable to fly
barely
off the ground

from angel to shroud
with
moth-eaten wings

all that is left
but
to fly
to flames

i see her
and my shadow grows
gold like Harlows hair

then to
black
like a digested sun
and the music of a gnawing universe
with whelping teeth
and melting white candles
gets me dancing
like a dragging needle
through grieving flesh

she droops
like a thick cloud
bending towards me
a sky in flames
in a torn dress

and her kisses whip through me
like wind through mists

my step mom comes over to my office intermittently
turns on the computer and opens the emails
in the dark of night
making all cheery bright and lighted for my mourning arrival

so kind of her
making sure things are ready to go
she always the epitome of efficiency

did i mention
she's been dead now for over 20 years

did i mention we are lovers
sadly never in the flesh
always an unspoken ache during the living years
when we where near
a relentless unrequited love still burning
like fire licks and scorching lips
trussed thighs spread wide
twisting swarms of wet tongues lapping
in each others bellies
and lungs
her feet in my mouth

so now free from others
the dead do what they **** well please
and on the slippery side of life
so do i
its about time!

did i mention her soft kisses
her dancimg *******
and soft round belly

didn't mean to get carried away again
or
the scent of her **** that veiled wet jewel
as she walked passed me
demon smiling innocence
sending me into a swoon
as she floated across a foot worn floor
with her beautiful pink angular toe
**** ticklers

am i repeating myself?

how sad i am that i never got on my knees
to brush my lips against her drool
to see her widen her haunches
inviting me; glaring madness
out the sides of her eyes

to work my way up
to her lurid dark fruit
hot ****  butter

your dead mom
but your here now
turning on the computer
and watching **** with me
dressed up for a hot blood
star spangled glitter ****
staring into my soul like only the dead can
taking positions the living could never imagine
oh my pretzel girl

we kiss reckless raw naked
all furious *** toys smushing raw mouths
and eat each other like hot apple bend over

yes mom so dark the things we do
that the living dare not ever think
blood suckers
yes my beloved
even die for each other sweetly
over and over again
lat minute kisses for the thin air road

dead and dead
in love in bed

that's how the breathless ****
all tender kisses
till hell breaks lose
till bloods **** pulse eschews
till all is lucid comatose ****
we enter heaven
stooping to hell for pleasures sake
letting go to
******'s purge
like waves from the cities of our guts
the sacred sin of the flesh

no taboos for ******* ghouls

and you once again turn hollow
a transparency
falling through my embrace like dust

will you come back tomorrow
turn on the computer
or better yet
maybe visit in a night dream of tangled caresses?

or
a day haunt
dancing leg show
in a smooth white pearl bath tub
stained with spider webs of coos
wild naked mouth
brooding slippery dark *******
and feral tongued kisses
red as wild cherry  blood
mouth to **** to **** to *** to *****
to cries and silver whispers
to be possessed?

sometimes love
never dies.

See my heart beats blue
A lasting shade of indigo
After all the poison it's consumed
It still beats,  if a little slow.  

And im not so shaking
I'm not so weak
Not so terrified
Not so weak

Not scared of life
Or what it seeks.  

Just understanding
When it speaks.

There's a masochistic twist
In an atom
At the core

Oh so willing of pain
If only pleasure grows a little more.

God knew that he would die.

Fallen from the sky
with feathers of an angel
and fire of the gods
I wasn't turned away from you.
Though the stories and lore
Warned against those come from heaven
I knew jesus was the same
Cast from above
Light bringer
To the deprived.

Revelation I encountered
Thought producing thought.  
And you in my mind.

Terrible thing to not care
Whether he be devil or angel
God or not
His light burned so bright
I knew in my heart
this is who I follow.