I want write you a poem
to explain how I feel
I want to translate my thoughts into words
Because this is so surreal
but all I can do
is write this
to you

I am fire
a burning flame

You pushed me away
prevented me from scorching your skin
stopped me from causing you pain

Distanced me from your life
prevent me from living a mark
stopped me from hurting you

I never meant to burn you
all I wanted was
to let you feel my heat

This distance only makes me burn stronger
until my flames can
touch you again.

So many things
I should be doing
but instead
I am
writing

Every single one
is a bottle of glass
some are big, some are small
some are short, some are tall
some are thin, some are fat
some are rough, some are flat
but they all
contain a scroll

When going trough their life
word are written in the scroll
the story of their life
the way they walk the earth
the secrets that they keep
what they feel deep
inside

the bottle is often scratched
some are even cracked
reminisce of when they were attacked
some didn't come out right
and some
have fell apart

I am just a pile of broken glass
protecting a scroll
please don't try to pick it up
you'll get cut

I am giving all my love outside
while keeping all the pain inside
I try to not let it show
but deep within it starts to grow

Like poison ivy which feeds on pain
drinking drops of blood, not of rain
around my heart it wrapped
and slit it all apart

As my heart is shred to thin
I know that I have died within
I need a fire to burn it whole
For a chance to save my soul.

This seed I planted deep with hate
I can not incinerate
For I can not ignite the flame
to burn down what I have became

They say the light at the end of the tunnel
is just a guy smoking a camel
but I don't care at all
because in his hand he holds the key
to burn this vile inside of me

Will you be this guy?
Will you use the key?
Will you burn this plant?

I can't.

I understand that this is not the right way
I undertstand that I should come and talk to your face
But you must understand that I can't
I couldn't stand you telling me to leave you alone
to go away

You must understand
there is only one way you could hurt me more
then if you let me inside
if you don't

I know you would rather I live you alone
I know you don't want my help
you didn't ask for my help
you would rather I will be gone
and leave you alone
but

You must understant that
It hurt's me to see you lie
It hurt's me to see you fake a smile
It hurt's me every time you put on a mask
It hurt's me every time you pretend everything's fine
It hurt's me when I can't ask what isn't right
It hurt's me when you shut me outside
It hurt's me
more than anything else

You must understand that I can't
Just sit and watch you in pain
And pretend like everything is alright

you must understand
that I care
more than anything else
I care
for you

You must understand
I don't know what else I can do.