I confess that when it's 3 am and you kiss me on my forehead thinking I'm asleep
           I'm not.
I confess that every time you pull me closer to you whenever you're sleeping
           I melt in-between your embrace.
I confess that every kiss that I receive from you
           is still as sweet as the first one.
I confess that every "I hate you" followed by a smirk
           is truly a hidden "I love you".
I confess that ever since you've came into my life the sun's warmth
          is nothing compared to your warm skin on mine every morning.

October 31, 2014
"we shouldn't have done this. if your brother finds out, he'll beat my *** and send you with your mom."

and that's how it began. Our story. The way we stumbled into my room, after we got your tattoo, and we laid on my bed talking about life. my heart felt like it was going to explode Then, you kissed me and we intertwined.

November 2, 2014
"i think we should keep doing this. you liked it. i liked it. it was good. we just can't tell anyone about this."

November 15, 2014
"please, don't get use to me. I'm destructive."

November 28, 2014
"do you want to sleep over?"

December 12, 2014
"you and me, we are a team. We're like Bonnie and Clyde."

December 31, 2014
"i was losing hope before you came into my life and i want to tell you that i am so happy that you entered it. even if it was towards the end of the year. we will be able to spend this new year together. Luv you, Bonnie"

January 2, 2014
"i'm stupid. I'm stupid for telling you to not get use to me, when i got use to you."

January 14, 2015
"please don't go, stay longer."
"i could wake up to you every day. you're so **** beautiful."

How do you look at the person you've loved for so long and force yourself to walk away?
Push yourself to forget every laugh,
Every kiss,
Every touch,
Every longing glance.
Watch them fall in love with someone else:
Someone more beautiful,
Someone more talented,
Their soul mate
And wonder why it couldn't have been you.
Why you were simply not good enough.
And remind yourself that you let them go,
That this could be you.
But you were too insecure,
Too stupid,
Too selfless.
How do you convince yourself that you did the right thing when every night you are up until two in the morning screaming their name?
When you don't want to wake up because in your dreams they're still yours.
When their name burns like hard liquor at two in the morning
But makes your stomach feels so warm,
Pain can be mistaken for love.
How do you convince yourself that they are better off?
When you are completely miserable without them.
When you still crave their touch,
See the smile on their face and know that you are not the one behind it.
That you will never be the reason again.
How do you act like strangers?
Pretend that you didn't spend hours in his arms planning out your future.
Forget how much it hurts to think of when he promised you forever.
How do you live with the epiphany that
Love doesn't last forever.

"i will never get tired of the story your eyes say."
"i could look at you all day."
"i'm watching you grow right in front of my eyes. and i love it."
"i've never met anyone like you."
"stay. please. stay."
"i wish i could tell everyone about us."
"you look beautiful."
"i love your new hair cut."
"i brought you a coke. i know it's your favorite drink."