I've never been the best at expressing my emotions but I
Simply and honestly love you like a brother.
And not because I've known you forever, but because you're
Amazing, incredible and all around irreplaceable.
C*an you promise that you'll watch over me? Like my father...

rip my best friend. love you forever

i still love you like crazy
and miss you like hell

1:10 pm
"That's why I love you with everything I've got kid... and I'd trade everything I've got for you."

I want to believe in forever.
I want to believe that whenever someone tells you that they love you,  
       they really mean it.
I want to believe that true love really does exit and not just in fairytales.
I want to believe in.... you
      in your "i love you"
      in your wrapped, comforting arms
      in your good morning/goodnight kisses
      in your words....

.                        you            either
                 have to be     tremendously
              insane or utterly in love to give
          your heart. You give them the power
             to build you up or destroy you in
                such a short period of time....
                   and if that doesn't scare
                       you one bit, I don't
                             know what
                                   will.

Today I heard someone say that you were "perfect"
and I envied them...
I envied the way that her tongue wrapped around your name.
I envied the way her eyes lit up talking about you.
I envied the way that she couldn't stop mentioning you.
I envied the way that I had to act like I didn't love you...
                 and I e-n-v-i-e the way that I wasn't her
                       telling everyone how great you are.



                                                         because you're the light to every dark age
                                                                                   and I wish every one knew
                                                                                      that you truly are perfect.

there's mystery in everything...
  mystery in the way you're so perfect and yet you love me.
    mystery in the way that we fell in love.
      mystery in the way that you always wake up so perfectly.
        mystery in the way that you made me fall in love with you so easily.
          mystery in the way that we met.
            mystery in the way that you are.

But theres one thing that I am sure of and that's that I love you with every ounce of me... forever and ever until the end.

I'm scared....
I'm scared of being loved...
  I'm scared that you'll change your mind...
   I'm scared that our last good-bye will come... and soon...
    I'm scared that you'll look at me, the same way I look at myself....
     I'm so so scared to fall in love... because I'm a
                          t i c k i n g  t i m e  b o m b

              **but I'm much more scared of losing you

all my life I've been told that love is pure and when it comes, it'll make everything easier....
    but it feels like my love for you is wrong

if only they could feel what we feel when we're making pancakes at 11 am while we're dancing to Otis Redding...

maybe then the seven years between us two won't feel so "unacceptable"

maybe then it'll be okay for an eighteen year old to be completely and utterly in love with a twenty-five year old

maybe then we won't hide between four walls whispering "love you" through our eyes

maybe then we won't have to drive hours away to have dates...

maybe then... just maybe, we can go to walmart at 7pm when everyone is there and we won't be scared to hold hands and kiss each other on the cheek

but maybes don't always come true....

I confess that when it's 3 am and you kiss me on my forehead thinking I'm asleep
           I'm not.
I confess that every time you pull me closer to you whenever you're sleeping
           I melt in-between your embrace.
I confess that every kiss that I receive from you
           is still as sweet as the first one.
I confess that every "I hate you" followed by a smirk
           is truly a hidden "I love you".
I confess that ever since you've came into my life the sun's warmth
          is nothing compared to your warm skin on mine every morning.

October 31, 2014
"we shouldn't have done this. if your brother finds out, he'll beat my *** and send you with your mom."

and that's how it began. Our story. The way we stumbled into my room, after we got your tattoo, and we laid on my bed talking about life. my heart felt like it was going to explode Then, you kissed me and we intertwined.

November 2, 2014
"i think we should keep doing this. you liked it. i liked it. it was good. we just can't tell anyone about this."

November 15, 2014
"please, don't get use to me. I'm destructive."

November 28, 2014
"do you want to sleep over?"

December 12, 2014
"you and me, we are a team. We're like Bonnie and Clyde."

December 31, 2014
"i was losing hope before you came into my life and i want to tell you that i am so happy that you entered it. even if it was towards the end of the year. we will be able to spend this new year together. Luv you, Bonnie"

January 2, 2014
"i'm stupid. I'm stupid for telling you to not get use to me, when i got use to you."

January 14, 2015
"please don't go, stay longer."
"i could wake up to you every day. you're so **** beautiful."

"i will never get tired of the story your eyes say."
"i could look at you all day."
"i'm watching you grow right in front of my eyes. and i love it."
"i've never met anyone like you."
"stay. please. stay."
"i wish i could tell everyone about us."
"you look beautiful."
"i love your new hair cut."
"i brought you a coke. i know it's your favorite drink."

i will be loved
i will be called "beautiful"
i will be caressed
i will be desired
i will be a lover
i will be... somebody

but for right now, i'm just breathing

they say that time goes by fast,
but 24-hours seems long...

some days my eyes get heavy...
and my eyelids begin to shut...
and not from exhaustion,
but form my thoughts...