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Feb 2023 · 112
Untitled
m Feb 2023
I want a love that feels like morning coffee
or Sunday drives.
my skin aches to be touched by your wandering hands.
you are 4000 km away.
when will we feel closer.
Jun 2022 · 208
unknown
m Jun 2022
I just want you to know me.
I've tried so hard to be close to you.
We will only be friends.
May 2022 · 92
23 now
m May 2022
when the world hands you shaping experiences you become vividly aware of how temporary life is.
the cliche "don't sweat the small stuff" becomes something to live by,
because it's truly all small stuff.
on travels like this I think of my dad and what he'd think if he knew all I've done with my life.
freshly 22 and I feel I just started to live.
I've started cherishing every small interaction or smile because each passer by becomes apart of a unique larger experience you get to live out on this earth.
romanticize the idea of your morning coffee, or your commute home from work.
take every bump in the road as an opportunity to practice patience.
live through your heart instead of your head.
life will not wait for you, it's happening here and now.
things will pass you by whether you are ready or not.
so regardless of the situations impacting you whether it's for seconds, months or years - jump in and let yourself feel it.
May 2022 · 482
capture
m May 2022
I take pictures of everything.
It's like a feeling that takes over me.
I've watched my friends snicker at me,
I've watched their questioning gaze.
I'd like to think it derives from a sense of appreciation for the world.
But maybe it's more from struggling to let go.
I cannot let go of people, or moments,
or anything really.
Something as simple as a picture can take me right back.
Nov 2021 · 122
West Coast Blues
m Nov 2021
Why did I want to be older?
Why did I spend the easiest years of my life wishing them away?
Adulthood is only full of beginnings and goodbyes.
Memories that I grieve for.
I don't look at photos and feel nostalgic; I feel grief.
I grieve for that old version of myself, of family and lovers.
Adulthood is depressing.
The west coast taught me the pain of life,
it pushed all of my fears to the surface.
The beautiful west coast; who did I find out there?
I found myself. The real me.
The one who is in a lot of pain.
The one who always has a front on.
I ran to the coast to get away from my pain,
I only came back with more.
Nov 2021 · 117
Just A Moment
m Nov 2021
The feeling of being in a moment and wishing it was forever is irreplaceable.
You know how great it is, and that you'll never be there again.
I have paintings of old lovers, songs I've wrote them,
They will never know.
I was just a moment to them, one that I wish I could relive forever.

Kiss me now in this moment, I'll pray I'm more than a moment to you.
To me you were temporary shelter, a home for my heart.
I spent hours painting me and you.
A painting that sits lonely in my sketch book now.
Am I more than a moment to you?
Am I more than a blurry drunk memory?
You occupied a space in my brain, you still do.
When do I stop reliving moments hoping they'll happen again.
You've changed.
I was so hopeful to grow by your side, to be able to turn one moment into a lifetime of many.
But to you, I'll always just be a moment.
Nov 2021 · 106
Nothing Everlasting
m Nov 2021
To think anything is permanent is ridiculous,
Not this moment, not a budding relationship, not even family.
Yesterday is just that, yesterday.
Love dies, people fade, and nobody in the end is ever indefinite.
Nobody except yourself.
Dec 2020 · 76
Untitled
m Dec 2020
Fill my lungs with flowers
and cover my wounds
with salt.

I would much rather make a mark
in your heart,
than in
your eyes.
Dec 2020 · 51
tart orange
m Dec 2020
orange candy sweet as sunrise on an endless July night.
I couldn't forget the times made from lake craft and lager.
remember sitting on the beach till the sun rose?
remember mixing wine and coolers until we were sick?
what an awful feeling.
but I would give many things to relive it.
Dec 2020 · 63
a thought
m Dec 2020
I began to write poems when I learned not every thought was worth sharing.
   - when I learned that nobody really cared as much as they preached.
Putting my thoughts onto paper seemed to sooth me.

I began to write poems when I learned that not every person deserves the ideas that scatter my brain, and not every person will value them either.

I began to write poems when I found you. But the thought of expressing my feelings made me nauseous beyond belief.

So I began to write poems.
Mar 2020 · 221
Lotus Flower
m Mar 2020
healing never stops, we just find new ways to do it.
life never 'gets easy', we learn to cope.
you learn to foster and create resilience within you.
maybe that's why I have always loved the lotus flower.
a flower that grows so beautifully from the deepest and thickest mud at the bottom of a pond.
a flower that faces many obstacles before reaching the surface and blooming to its fullest potential.
it blooms in the most unusual places and can withstand thousands of years without water;
it is self sufficient.
but you'd never know it, because all you see is the finished product.
you cannot recognize nor appreciate the strength it took to reach that point because the process is unknown by many.
we're all so scared to take that initial step to heal because we don't want to admit to ourselves it's time to make change.
start in the mud, rise to the surface, and enjoy the abundance of years you will have there.
change starts with acceptance.
Nov 2018 · 700
A home for confidence;
m Nov 2018
It takes time to make a home out of your body.
To be able to sit inside your mind and wash away
Any form of negativity
To be simply happy with your complexion.
To be so comfortable that you have no doubts.
The world is a harsh place to build a home for yourself,
They will doubt you
Break you down
Tell you how it's not done.

Your perception of ‘beauty’ is extremely corrupted
Stop blaming yourself.
Its not your thoughts,
;your acne
;your stomach
;your slim legs
It’s merely the idea you hold of beauty.

Imagine the world without standards?
Imagine never worrying about others thoughts on you?
-About a number on social media?
Imagine we were coached to prioritize social media & beauty
-second?
We would have a world of intelligent
Confident
Fearless people.

Maybe with that power we would be too dangerous;
maybe unstoppable.

Thats why we keep people
at their lowest.
The power confidence gives is
intoxicating.
Nov 2018 · 174
a man, not a father
m Nov 2018
The way I grew up was learning to sympathize
with the people who didn't deserve it
to be kind to those
who broke my heart

“**** them with kindness”
my mother would always say
but what if the person who broke my heart was
my own father.
am i still expected to mourn and love this
man
this diseased, careless man.
pressing a bottle to his mouth became priority over
his own *******
family.

wine stained lips that muttered
apologies
“I'm sorry”


as i grow older i realize i too,
love putting the bottle to my lips
even maybe too much some nights.

everybody was right when they said
i will always have a piece of you.
that piece of you sadly seems to be your
addictive personality .. and those stained lips

— The End —