Your hair catches the wind
Revealing a desperate plea
I whisper but there is no sound
Is  someone looking for me?
Tears **** my face
I feel ill no escape
Displaced and disgraced
Drown into my eyes while they can still see
No hopes or thoughts just  miles away
I begin to ache as the anguish stains my core
Washes my courage away
I’m a fallen star
Distance unthaws my heart
Try to color my lips
So they don’t  turn blue when we kiss

I'm a bottle filled up with purity. Soul punctured faced many defeats in my life that's why my soul leaks from this bottle.
Thoughts are instilled in me so below my mind drowns previous tragedies... I'm just a casualty of Pain . Life of shame.  Quick to blame but I survived through all of this...

So many tears hides under the skin.  but my spirit leaks the pain.  Simple jokes.  simple laughter hides the sadness beneath this mask.  The darkness I hide in reminds me in sadness in a capsule add water and end it all.  overdose on life  . Had me by my neck on a leash . no pup by I suffocated from happiness I had a love deficit  my heart was DEFINITE (DEATH -IN-IT) .

My Soul became frozen.  like winter solstices.  tears frozen with every cry I became lonely.  Every mistake . every heartbreak missed opportunity hits me like melting Iceburgs on south poles.. Now you see how my soul was buried with frost bites.  it overcame me like termites pain terrorized me.

Stress cause my health to take a dive but mental struggle forced me to hit ice head first. A head on collision to naive decisions the hurt me like incisions with precision.

Every Cry.  Every pain. Every tear I've ever felt. Every give up.  Every sin every addiction can cure that soul for once it once was. I had a a moment of clarity I had a calling to read the bible to read a scripture my testimony my teaching as I read scriptures my leaking soul cries no longer I'm a bottle I leak pains. God unthaws my pain defrost my frozen heart. picks me up from drowning.  no longer I'm suffocated. eyes open up to sunny days wind breeze..  with purpose of life with amnesia to my past

How can I feel so full of love
as the sun rises every morning
sunshine fills me up,
unthaws my tired bones

but as it softens,
the sun sinks into the lake by my home
I feel it return, that chill in my spine,
reminding me you are not mine anymore,
and I am hollow again,
missing you, again

when will this end?