"toothily" poems
You can't hear me talk, can barely hear me sing
My apologies fall deaf on you and what washes over, stings
I fall head first into your ocean, enveloped in waves of rough cement
But through this capture you are peaceful
My battered form makes you content
It's funny how they call the past, the past,
And not the present
You greet the currency of times with nothing but resent
You tell me you know what I see
Laugh toothily as I fall to my knees
Engulfed with pain deeper, than my own
As I watch you fall steeper
It is impossible to stamp the blame
To disrupt your flawless form
I wouldn't dare to place a mark on you, nor tell you what you've worn
I'll motivate my stiffened mind, though you tell me that I can't
Collective moments form the clog
And I have become the ant
It comes as no surprise that
Your comfort scares me so
Behind each understanding is a reckless anecdote
A fury-littered monologue
A venom worded rant
The apology won't matter
Cause I am still the ant
It's difficult to swallow, though
My pills were hours ago
I softly stroke the future that I know is doomed, but floats
It treads above the water, as buoyant as it can
I guess future doesn't matter
I will always be the ant.
Apr 19, 2012
Apr 19, 2012 at 12:16 PM UTC
i'll write a poem for every time i
**f
e
l
l**
for you
i.
we were on the phone
silence filling the line
until you shoveled through
and asked me
if it was just you
or were we both toothily grinning over each other
that was a trip on the pavement
that resulted in scraped knees
ii.
once again,
i enabled the silence
to pervade through us
that was until you came out with it
**y o u ' r e
s a d ,
a r e n ' t
y o u ?**
that was a slip off a ladder
that resulted in a sprained ankle and wrist
iii.
i spoke the painstaking truth
of fat and not-good-enoughness
i spoke of pressure and ugliness
and you saw through the flaws
as if they were perfectly normal
that was a freefall off a cliff
that resulted in a comatose state
where i had nothing to live off of
except your love
Jul 17, 2013
Jul 17, 2013 at 2:18 AM UTC