They linger in my mind
"they" is my best kept secret
I came to a simple conclusion
but who am I to judge
to tell them how to feel
how to behave
I feel numbness in my heart
I am just waiting for my day to die

I had big dreams
but they were taken away
but it is ok

We are trapped in our childhood memories
our worlds are bricks of recollections
but not as painful as them
I caught a glimpse of their souls

I don't understand them
I question my sanity
are we just savages?
no respect for a young soul
no compasion
no love if there is a drop at all

if I could I would **** them
I don't have the courage
I am a coward
it was a rainy day when my innocence was taken away
yet a soul is dying every single day
how to make them understand the pain doesn't go away
you still feel when your body was *****

I can't believe what I saw
I can't believe what I heard
or is just them that don't go away
them, them who took my innocence away

the taste of their mouth liquor and cigarettes
if only I had a dagger on that rainny day...
they wrenched my skin
I thought they were my saviors
treacherous creatures
trust honesty loyalty
diluted across the pores of my though skin

I don't have the body of a child anymore
you took the innocent child
tender eyes, sweet smile
red, plump lips
sadness, sorrow and pain
I am stepping close to a cloud of hate

you caught me staring at the firmanent of nothingness
my thoughts wondered
in a twilight
in the emptiness
shallow lips
I stick my tongue inside your mouth
there is emptiness and darkness
but i fake it anyway


I will not come back
but someday you will know
it was not all in my mind
when you hold into the memory of our broken hearts


you will say i was just high
I am just one more shiny star
one billion years
one more year of lights
and with a broken heart I said goodbye
with a broken heart in the palm of my hand
looking for the real love that i might never find

Hey there,
In this tiring yet beautiful night,
I just want to share my 1 A.M. thoughts.

Dear you,
I fell in love for who you are today
But fell deeper,
For what you've been all this time,
I like spending time alone,
But with you,
Time has become more precious,
I used to wait for rainny days,
But with you,
Every moments become my favourite,
I like all of your bright side
But your darkest side,
Haunt me to know you more.
You're not a whole box of happiness
Cause you are not a box of chocolate,
You're a box of salty caramels.
You're a whole package of bitter, sweet, salty, and sour.
You made my life complete,
Cause you are, you.
❤

you come to me in my rainny day
you say to me that you’re fine
can you feel me since the day we met
can you hear my voice
can you say that you’ll be my mysterious color
should I choose between black or white?
Hide or show?
Would you describe the way I handle this
Or you just stay away and still in silence
Isn’t hard to found your forest?
Or you gonna find your land in another world
Isn’t hurt to make a diference in our story?
Still, it will be kind if we’re fine
Real love will always meet their lock
You, Me or whoever still have a chance to be better
Now, get out from your bed
Brush your tooth
Taking a bath and meet your own sunrise
It’s stlll morning to pick up our happines
Be happy, start with smile
And let rainbow coloring your life