"novicane" poems
Shoot me up, just a taste
Numb my core with sweet novicane
Poison my veins, rippling clear across my brain
So strong that I don't feel a single thing
Not a pinch of delight, veering on the edge of insane
In a dream-like state
Soundlessly floating away.
I've met you before, Lucy
But this time I intend to stay
I'm captivated by your prison, chained inside your domain
In this realm of impurity, you are my desired escape.
Jun 11, 2017
Jun 11, 2017 at 8:17 PM UTC
I'm just empty now.
But there are a few holes.
So I can't contain much.
Unless you are rock solid.
I used to be a good vessel.
I used to let you fill me.
But now things will just get messy.
Jan 21, 2015
Jan 21, 2015 at 11:29 PM UTC
One must learn from the mistakes no matter how long it takes.
I once use to tell myself that i was always the one to blame.
Man that use to drive me insane.
Crying out to The Most High Screaming and shouting his name.
Taking Beatings from feeling guilty hurt and shame.
like my heart was the target and Everyone had an perfect aim.
Stomp on used and abused by everyone I opened up to that came.
But everytime I got played like a video game.
So One day I desired to smoke me some mary jane.
I wanted so badly to drown my sorrow with her frame.
Just to numbing the pain Like novicane.
Until I was left with nothing but brokeness, stupidity, and a blind fool who was lame.
Negative Nancy Is whom I became.
The tears kept falling but yet I couldnt began to explain.
I felt stuck like my I was living my life in vain.
Like a house fire I was inflamed
How do you put out a fires flame?
Its by dancing in the rain.
Im telling you is a refreshing experience It was almost like It washed away the ***** stain.
Went in the storm muddy but came out of it never to be the same.
Thru the pain It was strength I've gain.
The trails, tribulations, the hurricanes, storms and tornadoes I overcame.
Thru Yah I was able to Say Its Victory that I proclaim.
I pray that helps whip you into shape.
I guess I just needed my earth to quake.
Expose the fake that slithering among me as snakes.
We are human beloved sometimes We are do not bake like the perfection of a bakerys cake.
So unfortunately sometimes our hearts do break.
But you are still A SUPERWOMAN even if you dont wear a cape.
Dont let this heartbreak be your way of drowning in a kryptonite lake.
Arise, and mediate,
All the bad vibes shake, shake, shake!
you have to Remember is that each breathe we take is way of escape.
I pray That you come out fruitful like a vine of ripen grapes.
From my heart to yours my beloved Agape
Dec 23, 2016
Dec 23, 2016 at 12:42 PM UTC
tear upon the climbing highs,
rip-- bring up the 'cending lows.
this is living in your fears.
drinking through the breaking points,
a mind full of troubled pints,
there's a story within this glass,
a tale within her eyes.
hear the tale of broken glass,
beautiful in the moonlight,
like crackling indifference 'gainst
hope's warm embers of light.
claim the territory of her pain,
a force like soul-fallen rain
all in vain-- all in vain.
as she is...
she once was...
so shall she be.
so there is hope!
as once she was--
no! you cannot see?
the tale within her eyes?
the story within the glass?
so shall the rain fall,
pins and needles
pins and needles.
so shall the numbness grow.
novicane and empty bottles,
moonlight. tears.
all in vain: novicane.
all in vain: careful rain.
was she? the glass of my life?
shall she be? a tale of shattered moonshine?
am I the story, beautiful in fractured embers:
crackling indifference to hope?
so shall she be, it seems.
so shall I be in dreams:
again, under tearing seams.
broken. moonlit glassing gleams.
pain.
rain.
pins and needles.
Sep 20, 2017
Sep 20, 2017 at 11:42 PM UTC
if there ever comes a day
where I can't feel
at least a flicker of luna's
presence
in my chest anymore
i hope that you'd
love me enough
to let me go live among the stars
and understand that
you were not the novicane
that drove me there
Jan 9, 2014
Jan 9, 2014 at 8:56 PM UTC