I never understood the idea of masochism.
Not until you came into my life.
I was young when we met.
Now I'm older and wiser and yet, you never really age, it seems.
You're still mischievous and playful as always.
Still playing peek-a-boo with me like a little child.
Some people say you're not a good friend for me.
Some say you're not real.
But I, as your best friend, know that you're very real.
No matter what they say about you, you know that I can never hate you.
No mattter how much you hurt me.
No, I take it back.
You never hurt me.
It's always me who does the beating.
And you, you're just there, watching me.
We're not just friends, or brothers.
We are one.
Although I cannot see you, you're always in my heart.
Your arms wrapping around every part of my body
Like vines on a tree
Hugging me so tightly.
So tightly that I can barely breathe.
And I get scared sometimes.
Especially when you jump out of the darkness to scare me.
But I love you.
And I know you will never leave me.
And I don't think I'd ever be able to leave you.

I finally know who I am,
And what it feels like
To be with the person
You want to spend your life with.
You made me realise
That no mattter what everyone says,
The best gift to give someone
Is letting them be themselves
Without a spot of judgment.

DON'T ASK, DON'T TELL

What if we don't, don't even date
What if we, are not a soulmate!!
There is a world that I would create
There is a world where we could relate

What if this life could get even better
What if you, at all didn't mattter
Bodies burn, the ashes scatter
Yes I know, what you say in that letter

I have free will and not allowed to choose?
I use free will, I am allowed to lose
I reject your collar, I reject your noose
If already a loser, what I have to lose?

Open your eyes, see what you have created
In your own word, it was anticipated
Still you want this appreciated
I think not!

You know me, of what I am able
In the blink of an eye I could turn this table
I could  love you for ever
Or watch you hang from the gable

(M. N. R.)
13 APRIL 2018

we have to learn to live we have to learn to cope
believe in yourself and believe in hope
life as many roads that we have to take
which  way do you go  its up to you to make

there are many turns on each and every bend
you just never know whats there at the end
no mattter who we are its the same for everyone
life is there to live life it must go on

its  apart of nature that just has to be
for all the human race.  every you and me
it makes the world round helps the world to live
the world is there for everyone that has so much to give