"illl" poems
Mum and Dad
By Abida Begum
Mum and Dad you have been there from the start, from the day i was born ,
the first breath i took in the scary world you always been there and never looked back.My tantrums and anger you never judged me for but the true beauty of my soul is why you are here
for without you i would have been scarce.
so thank you for teaching me right and wrong and the hate that i have got to turn it into a song
life will always be hard , i know but its the precious things in life that keep us so strong
fight back with actions not words prove to them that you have been worth it all along
work hard let the world know that you can do anything, yes its been told
i am writing this poem to let you know you have been worth it all along
so thank you for everything from the bottom of my heart
no words, no actions can prove this i know
so all i can say is how thankful i am mum and dad thank you for its all i can
all i can give you is my heart ,yet i know it will never always be enough , no amount of anything could show how amazing you both are
except these words that prolong in my heart
ill take it with me to my grave
yes i am scared of dying but you two are what is keeping me still standing
illl tell my kids how amazing you are with the hope that i will l be just as good as you both are.
Mar 1, 2015
Mar 1, 2015 at 4:29 PM UTC
I guess its proven to be
just as we exactly wanted it to be
except there isnt us.
another year another tear
a fear of what i feel
and how Im able to live with myself
behind a shadow of guilt
im able to wake up -- everyday and smile
and wonder to myself and think;
how it would be great to hear your voice
and be able to tell you that im sorry
and im sorry for the lies that hurt you-
and im sorry that the reason I lost you,
was to better myself and be this better me; hand in hand next to you.
Fate
its impossible --- so they say
Im a mircle baby
so illl make it happen
just watch me. stand there eye me up and down, feel free, judge me
try to belittle me and abuse me
Apr 22, 2011
Apr 22, 2011 at 6:53 PM UTC
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Feb 10, 2015
Feb 10, 2015 at 6:20 AM UTC
November 26, 2014
I got out of bed that morning
Drank my daily cup of coffee
Went out with the boy I was seeing at the time
I'm surprised I even got out of bed that day
104 pounds to weak to walk around
We went to the park after three cups of Waffle House coffee
I was shaking more than an earth quake shakes the trees
Ring Ring
It's my father calling
"Sarah I need you to come home right now"
Me thinking oh illl just wait another 15 minutes it's no big deal
"Yes sir, be there soon"
I press my shaking hands against the door **** and open it
I could actually FEEL it in the room
I could feel the heart break smothering my entire body
I could feel the damp tears making the room humid and unbearable
"Your mother has killed herself, Sarah."
You expect
A weeping Howl
A fall hard to the ground breaking bones and your heart
A gasp for your breath but only to ingulf water and drown
A a painful scream that pierces the ears of you neighbors
But no I just stood there
Unable to move
Unable to feel
That's the day I knew I was broken for good. Some expensive China plate busted into 27 different pieces and you lost number 9
November 26, 2014 I broke
Aug 4, 2017
Aug 4, 2017 at 9:57 PM UTC
Alaa, wake up my dear. Please wake up, look your mother has got milk for you.
Sitting on the ****** floor, covered in dust and tears he said “ he was my little brother”
Where is my son muhammad? Where?
“ what is his full name?”
Where are you muhammad? Muhammad?
Yes this is our son. God be willing.
The mother cried quietly and said, my Muhammad
Father said:
“Give him to me , please, illl carry him”
The mother said
“Noo, ill carry him, he is my dear son. Dnt come near to me, if you will come near, ill never forgive you
Look everyone, this is my dear muhammad, God be with you my dear child.”
And she held him in her lap, carrying him on the dusty streets, surronded by death , fear and destruction. She did not care, for her whole world she was carrying in her arms.
We will come back my Aleppo, we are leaving you with teary heart, but wait for us my beautiful Aleppo, we will come back
She stood infront of the rumbles of her beloved home and for the last time absorbed it in herself and bid a goodbye
She went to her broken home, but the plants in her backyard were still green inspite of shelling and bombs, she plucked one stem and tearfully left the last step from her home, kissing the wall and the door.
She was 9 months pregnant , the shell hit her, they did c section and took out the child. He was motionless and did not cry, they did cpr , pat his back by keeping him upside down, rubbed him hard and atlast he cried hard, and the room beemed with ALLAH O AKBAR.
A kind hearted Dr. Hamza, who revived my faith in kindness and humanity.
Jul 25, 2020
Jul 25, 2020 at 2:41 AM UTC