"heartspace" poems
once upon a time
there was
a circle
and it drummed
and it
strummed
and the lump
in
my
throat
the size of a tyrant's
fist
dissolved
into
a pure
white light feeling
and i was a
person
a part of something
not apart
not asunder
a heartspace coming coming
a star starring
afar
in the distance
guiding my lost feet toward
an oasis
that actually
is
a new start an art of being dreaming awake made
for you
a land of yay to hold in the palm of your hand and
a vibrating tone
resonates in that numb sternum
a tone that
lay
one
shade
away
from the ten thousand and ten whites of the first light
ever lit
Her womb receiving you
again
Oct 7, 2015
Oct 7, 2015 at 6:31 PM UTC
hues of (you)
(leave) my heartspace sublime
you continue to paint (me)
in (a)ll of my rhymes
so my sun keeps it’s (shine)
so my Light (i) can find
all our moments (eternally)
(grow) toward the sky
oh our colors (the)y bloom
and my heart becomes (new)
(you) will always be my
true illusion (to) time
Dec 5, 2017
Dec 5, 2017 at 2:46 PM UTC
I've pruned the edges of my garden, but
when all still wilts, withers, and dies
I plant myself anew.
I pat clods of dirt between the crevices of my ribcage
and nestle a seedling in the cavity
of my heartspace.
Perhaps something lovely
will grow there
someday.
Mar 20, 2015
Mar 20, 2015 at 5:47 PM UTC
late night street scholars
smoke green on green trains
sing d-flow & p-funk hymns
with third-eye
campfire heartspace
effervescent
enlightenment
of the moon.
All united only
by the time in the most draconian sense
at "2:30am eastern standard time"
our classroom
be on the 6th train heading uptown.
I saw this happening...
People keep calling me jesus--
makes me nervous cause
i'm starting to believe it.
We are all us.
Mar 12, 2014
Mar 12, 2014 at 8:14 AM UTC
I made space for you. Here
just under my collar bone and
between the gloopy lobes of lung.
I cracked open the bony sternum door,
reached in and mucked out the place that
I’ve spent my life filling with hopes and dreams.
When I pulled them out, my
hands came away covered in the
stinking rot of goals unfulfilled; my
wrists burned as the decaying poison of
unmet expectation ate away the flesh there.
I scrubbed the walls of my new empty spot
with the essence of despair and an infusion of apathy tinged
with a hint of resentment. Chemicals so corrosive
that the nerve endings burned
off leaving a sterile, unfeeling space.
I did all that for you.
You died while I was cleaning.
You had gone out, frustrated again
about how I never made time for us to spend
with just each other.
You slammed the door and even as my
hair blew back from my
face with the force of your anger,
I resolved to make a change. I had only just
finished disposing of my toxic waste when a
soft-sorry knock replaced your slam on the door.
At first I saw the gun on his hip, right next to the flashlight
and under the shade of a doughnut-filled muffin top.
‘I’m sorry,’ he said. ‘Your heart - it’s dead.’ and then
went on to explain something about a bus and a busy
city street. I couldn’t be sure exactly what he said.
My mind was distracted by the glare of the bright, burning
sunset jumping off the badge on his chest
stabbing me in the eye and
the feeling of numb negative space hanging
off the front of my spine.
Sep 14, 2014
Sep 14, 2014 at 10:30 PM UTC
always sorry, I make amends,
to break the slender branches
over and over, anyway;
fall down and sigh,
run away and
I'm so **** scared that everyone will see me
for the frightened child
I never grow out of.
the broken wings
I'd made those aching flight plans for
bled out:
open plain smoke
for seventeen nights,
days,
and the boundary crossings between them.
so, that vast sky,
built of shards and shards and shards,
oppresses, on high,
still, above, ruminating or dwelling,
upon cold response;
like I,
the small thing, on a small rock,
too afraid of heartspace or,
second takes
or,
just,
I'm sorry,
for the ******* I am.
Feb 24, 2013
Feb 24, 2013 at 12:42 AM UTC
I got tired of the beating, so I took it out.
that messy red lump of flesh, dripping onto the laminate floor.
thud-thud-thudding even removed
wet meaty smell and sticking to my fingers.
a cavern in my chest echoing through my ribs
miles deep and deep and deep
I'll burn this mortal heart
and cure myself of longing.
Oct 31, 2018
Oct 31, 2018 at 2:19 AM UTC