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Robert Guerrero Jun 2012
His journey started
When his mother abandoned him
Leaving him for dead
With a father
That was hardly ever home

He grew up
Not knowing what was next
He thought his life was perfect
Till he heard
The mother he knew wasn't his

He wanted answers
Grew into a depression
Anger and hatred boiling
Fueling the rage
That would soon be seen

He contemplated his suicide
Attempted it but failed
Something wanted him to live
He still contemplates
just never attempts

He slept with women
Having meaningless ***
Never staying for too long
Lost to his world of dispair
Creating demons for himself

He hasn't cried
Since he was eight
He watched his family fall apart
Dropping like rocks
Hoping for his time to come

He writes poetry
He draws endlesly
Wanting his emotions
That stain his soul
To disappear into the words and lines

He thought he was in love
So many times before
But they only deserted him
when those words
slipped off his tongue

Now he sits
Thinking constantly
About how the future would be
If the past wasn't so hard
Just how simple his life could of been

But when a girl
Walked into his life
Curly hair and a bright smile
Beauty crippling him
He said hello

When he left
All he did was think about her
She followed into the next grade
He was overjoyed
And he knew he was in love

He took a leap of faith
And said '' I love you''
She shrugged it off
Like the words themself
Had no meaning or value

He strived to prove to her
That he truly is in love
He thinks about her
He wants to comfort her
When she thinks she's not perfect

He finally convinced her
That she was never
Going to lose him
But it wasn't enough
He wanted her to know his demons

She asked countless times
To see his heart
So he gave it to her
And said ''Take a look for yourself
This is why I'm a mistake''

A waste of time and life
A waste of space and air
Is what he thinks of himself
A monster worst than any evil
That he created in the dark

She only told him
She loves him once before
He just wants to be hers
To be there even more
So she will never be alone

He thinks he's not good enough
That he can't make her happy
He's probably right
She never proved him wrong
And may never

He wants to kiss her
To love her
Go to sleep holding her
And wake up to her smile
Each and every day

He write poems for her
Thinking endlessly of her
But doesn't know where to start
When he's never felt like this before
Hoping she can help him

He wants to hear those words
Not I love you
But I want to give you a chance
He wants to ask for that chance
But too scared of the answer

He looks into the mirror
Ask the reflection some questions
Hoping for a better answer
Only getting what he wants
Not what he needs to hear

She loves him
He loves her
They want the same
But don't known where they stand
Still stuck in thier own fantasies

An unknown mans life
Is what he lives
No one knows who he is
What he stands for
Or where he came from

He's just a shadow
Like flames licking at your feet
Waiting to be heard and known
He's the poet born with rage
Letting his emotions be known

His work doesn't reach out
To every man, woman, or child
But to those who suffer
From countless days of pain
But he remains unknown

She encourages him on
She is his muse
The love he can't have
The Juliet to his Romeo
The only person keeping him sane

He stands on a cliff
Letting the ocean spray
kiss his face
As he listens to the calming winds
With her close to his heart
Thinking of his next poem
Martina Oct 2015
Thoughts revolve in my head
sometimes good , sometimes bad.
I feel like I am in carousel
that rotates endlesly
arousing my fantasy.

Sometimes it relives me
but increases my fear.
swetty hands and dificult to breathe
try to push away but it resist.

I become tense
emotions is raging inside me
because Im very sensitive.
And its dificult to get peace.
Usually it helps to get it out
in form of lyrics to show how I feel
with hope to get a positive refill.


Doctors try to cure and control the thoughts
in my head with medication and therapy.
But is it good to get stable
without passion for my creativity?
Without compasion and possibility
to discribe and explane how I feel...
codenameDust Mar 2016
The rage is building,
A tower made of kindling
It only needs a spark
For it to rage through the dark
And guide a roaring light
Lightening,
Igniting the darkest corners of the mind

In hindsight
That display of might
A painting, red and black
Preceded darker times
What am I left with in the end?
Another tower,
Built with regret.

And smoldering black,
A hatefull pit
Of fire, not illuminating
Never needing a spark
But endlesly burning
An all consuming flame
Bansi Adroja Sep 2018
You're a firework
a momentary thing of beauty
on cold nights
under amber city lights

You're a leaving train
when you're already running late
loud
and endlesly frustrating

You're an alarm
on a Sunday morning
with the cold side of the pillow
putting the day on snooze

You're rain
with a forecast for summer
or the cup of tea
and you're feet up
at the end of it all

You're everything wonderful
but terrible all the same
A Poem a Day
Elle Mar 2019
One rejection,
Awakened the monsters.
No, they're not heartaches,
It's an old friend, darkness.

They crept in slowly,
Just as you smiled,
Slowly, blocking the light,
They're demons inside.

It's not that easy,
Think of happy thoughts,
And they'll be gone
before you know it.

But no - it doesnt work that way,
"Go, save yourself", is what they say,
As you slowly pick the knife,
And held it tight.

You woke up,
Realizing it's wrong,
But then it wasn't over,
They came back.

"My dear, you've been rejected -
Abandoned, alone, suffering
from the pain you never asked.
Do yourself a favor my child."

Eyes that once had seen the light,
Was now in the depths of murk,
"Maybe they were right", you thought,
"Yes we are", they replied.

Determined, you held the knife,
Like your life depends on it,
And dear, you smiled so sweetly,
Not realizing the tears on your face.

How did you end up like this?
Was it your fault?
Or was it theirs?
Confused, you paused.

Staring at the ceiling,
Your thoughts are blank,
You're feeling nothing,
Yet you're seeing everything.

Why did you end up like this?
Did you do it?
Or they did?
Numbed, you smiled.

You glanced at the knife,
Adoring on what it can do,
Useful in so many ways,
One of that is ending the pain.

When did you became like this?
Do you remember?
Or was it them who does?
Pained, you sobbed.

Hush now, you can't cry,
Keep it to yourself
Or they might wake up
You can't let them know.

Where did it start?
Was it your heart?
Or was it their mind?
Shattered, silently, you cried.

You gave everything-
anything to anyone-
to everyone and what's left
for yourself my child?

Grieving for the things
you did. You were happy,
they were happy, but then,
was it enough to lose thyself?

You are ugly, but they said,
"You're pretty", looking at the mirror,
you seek for the truth, but all you see
Was the bitter reality.

You are skinny, but they opposed,
"You're ****", trying on your jeans,
Trying all your clothes and realized,
You were right, all this time.

You are dumb, but they smiled,
"You're brilliant," endlesly, searching,
the past records of your grades,
Smiled and said, "I am dumb."

You were broken by someone,
Asked them if you're not worthy
to be loved, they said, "You're worth it."
Many came, torned you again and again.

"You were rejected, abandoned,
unloved, isn't that a good reason?
A good reason to say goodbye?
Rest my child," slowly, you held it again.

This is the end, the pain,
It was unbearable,
The heartache,
It was self destructing.

Cold and alone in the room,
You stared at the window,
Smiled genuinely at the moon,
But it never reached your eyes.

Alone in the room,
At 12 midnight,
She turned 20,
yet, she died.

What made her do it?
Was it herself?
Or was it them?
Satisfied, she smiled and closed her eyes.

— The End —