A lot of people look familiar.
At this point I think
that I might have seen
everyone in town at least once.
I know a lot of people too.
However,
I feel like very few people know me.
I like it that way.
I’m pretty open
in regard to myself and my life.
It is, after all, what makes its way
into my art.
How could I be a good storyteller
if I didn’t tell true stories?
Still, I tend to keep to myself
more often than not.
My small family is all I need;
all I really want.
I do whatever I am able
to make sure that everything I do
means something to someone.
Sometimes it’s just me.
Cooper taught me to look at friendship through a different prism.
He showed me how to find
different significance
in the way the lights and colors
moved through
the time and space that had been allotted
them in any given moment.
I’m supposed to be able to see the importance of a single moment;
to see the history
while it’s still the present
and
to live in the moment
all while saving it for posterity.
Time travel is possible if you show your friends enough love.
Morrison and I spoke of
the aforementioned
at great length
the last time we were together.
I recounted times when I used to believe
that the only friends I had,
the only true friends I had,
were those people who would
regularly interrupt my sleep schedule
in the name of adventure,
overflow my ashtrays,
empty my refrigerator
all while turning that night
into the next day.
Everything served over-easy,
greasy with butter,
and
spiced with Tabasco sauce.
Our friendships were and are real enough,
but indigestion,
Insomnia,
omnipresence?
The requirements of my youth
are overworked
and simply incorrect.
A real friend can be quietly encouraging,
or someone who leaves you alone
for weeks at a time.
Remaining ready,
diligently able to resume
at a moment’s notice.
Picking up where you left off
like only seconds had passed.
I’ve talked this talk,
with and about
Cooper,
Clark,
Morrison,
Otto,
Mulvaney,
Nelson,
Christy,
and
Bremer.
Some of these,
I see once or twice a week,
others once or twice a year.
We love one another nonetheless.
We are friends after all.
This.
The very essence
of this line of thinking
is what fosters the kinds of interpersonal relationships
all human beings long for,
should strive for.
It is the definition that is listed
in the dictionary of my heart.
It is the manifesto
that Cooper laid out before me
at 4 o’clock in the morning.
We were at Denny’s having breakfast.
The eggs were runny.
The hash browns were covered in queso,
gravy,
or both.
Because we all have to die sometime.
Why not surround ourselves with
friends?
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-JBClaywell
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for my friends.
