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Mark Nelson Sep 2010
Willow herb floating

on silent certainty

ashes of sighs


not fleeting,

unvapoured on the

blossom of the rain,

I am too light to

pull or push

the swing of delight

through this land.




The rain left me for a

while

sun unshielding

-a thousand widows

more unyielding than the depths . .

Once shadowed whisperers

of delight,gossamer

sparkling , descending

their chains

of necromantic hope.





Lilith is no night owl

she is mother, eve

and my becoming:

sweet earth spun

at once ,

exhaling her .





The see saw

bumped gently

on my chin

it is a most gentle

form of awakening.




The silence bore no whispers

till sinking through the quicksand

-or was it quicksilver?

-in any case I could smell little

in my amniotic amnesia.

I made ten thousand friends,till their soap

made this place clean.



Is this a seed or a dying

hopefulness

-is my sallow sowing

beyond all shores of

reproduction;

a reflection of the child

they dared not bear?



Is my last breath like this

a forgotton yielding

will they catch me

as I fall ?

-(sweet earth)-



This moth of my ending,

a shallow recantation,

my fears-

their memories, mere

testubes of

stylish hope .





I breathe the elegant stare

you have forgotten .

Once more free

from such

rememberance






I need not ,

remained not ,

your imploded ,

wakefulness .





A thousand pardons

exhaled like silk

entwining

an unfinished race

spider of a thousand eyes .



One may say

I was

stared

to death

but surrogate air

mocks childish pity.



Taut refelexions

bear salt echoes

in silk convulsions

fresh water

a veneered hope .



Easier in death than life

is a child's sorrowed

partings ,

the illusion of

bouyancy

rippled tides

unfelt.



The oceans have not enough salt

for such shrunken sorrow.

if we could but once

have shared

unbreathed aspersion .



The room has come and gone

the pillow quite undry

unforgotten

unremembered.

A web untouched
2003. Tribute to Christina Lothian english teacher ,ended her life in the river Ayr ,in the embrace of another woman .They jumped together.I found out 30 years too late.
Debra A Baugh Feb 2013
I meditate upon shore of thoughts;
washing over my countenance, caressing
my soul.

as he forms verses in syllabic count, fore, his voice
ebbs in tidal waves, teasing with submissions of
cognitive chains of thought; where bated breath
pounds against my peninsula

open to laps in hunger, tasting passions complaisancy;
each rush, mouthed in a sauntering flow; touched
in currents of his thoughts; I absorb bittersweet brine

as there's no lack of verbiage, threatening consumption
of uttered articles of enticement

like driftwood floating; his words glide as tides drag
mind, to and fro with each affluxion, I acquaint
thoughts in odes

his sung ballads brush against me like seaward
breezes and I consume his melody in swelled seas
of delicacy

in harmony and bouyancy of song; I surrender
within his thoughts, relishing serenity; upon his
island of passion, wrapped within his poetry in thought
She shops in me,
if
I am the
supermarket,
she gets me
free.
If she is the boat that I float
then
I am her grocery.
All that I see is, that
she shops in me.
Rikki Aug 2014
it would seem
this boat we are in
took on some water

were our hearts too full?
too heavy to bring about
the bouyancy that
drifting at sea requires?

were we paddling with impatience?
that song we sang it had
a cadence that left
little time for reflection
no time to notice
the water lapping and rising at
our own feet

despite what we've been told
rarely is one prepared
for such a trip

after all
who could anticipate
the severe solitude
one discovers
adrift at sea,
hearts unmoored,
souls all afire
all aflutter
sails stormily snapping
and lapping up the
tempestuous wind
Devon Newsom Feb 2011
You take and you take and you take and you take-
feeding off of me like a parasite,
but I will not give, no-
I will not fall through the vows I made to you.
I swore and I swear and I will always remember that...

Beautiful day under the summer sun
when we were sitting underneath our favorite oak tree,
and that smile you gave to me-
leaving me breathless.

But, oh-the drowning had not yet started.

And once we started sinking,
we really started sinking.
We dropped and we dropped and we never had a chance-
our bouyancy was lost at sea;
eaten by a  monsterous shark.

But I swore and I swear and I will always remember that...

Graceful night under the gorgeous church lights,
with you in a beautiful dress teeming with perfection-
the mirror image of all my inspirations.

I love you.
I love you too.

I do.

But, oh! Oh...

How the pain rifts through,
sinking like a weight deep into our veins...
Oh, the pain.

How it can just swim into your heart,
and grasp you like a vulture on the hunt.

My soul is screaming, and being ripped apart.

But, oh God, how I swore and I swear and I will always remember that...

Night you decided our love wasn't enough,
that I was nothing but fodder for your rage.
And how I fed you.

You gnash and you break-
tearing at my heart like a lion contained.
How you managed to persuade me to lend you my heart;
I may never know.

But like a siren calling out,
my body runs to you-
My heart does too,
just unwillingly, and wantingly,
as if my heart was possessed-
controlled by a force far away.


I sit here and I wait as time passes by.
I don't know where to go from here.
As my legs are laying in red,
they feel as two crosses laying infront of me.
Heavy; unmoving.

I wish I could sleep with you,
but how can I ever sleep without wishing you goodnight?

You left so fast,
but yet-


I am relieved.
-Written by Devon Newsom
Caleb Wilcoxson Nov 2011
A piece, a place, a part of me
The inner side you never see
My hidden strength and bouyancy
Set for the eyes of only she.
Ken Pepiton Nov 2023
Self containing vessles, not a few,
were gathered to be filled from one
small cruse of golden oil, pure as time.

Invitations echo, "Come ye, buy from me,
without money, without cost." Freedom from

cultural constraints, traditional right privileges,
customary tribute due the mightiest military mind.
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Whistling editor of all of us,
in these and other words,
insert myself among
those entering the container
nearest you, be the self most honed.

--------- art's sakes alive,
no jive cat act, you know, this takes all day.

Sinking hope weights our bait,
dropping down to Cod level,
deeper than
our cultural bouyancy, sinking

through time climbing down
an actual ladder that was, that is
rusted to uselessness now, you see,

you fell, I climbed. Missed concepts
can take your breath away.
Sudden wisdom is not cheap thrills.
Same gravity, same air, same words.

We may imagine we form another mind,
we, you and me, combined, a new mind,
we, in an awesome state of knowing access.

Holy days, sanctified by family traditions,
expanding in the age of printing machines,
exploding in the age
of mass media via
psuedo infinite compute.

Science used to fool the foolable, magicians
all agree to be discrete, the enter-dance
is keyed to the most discerning
exercise of image forming,
will you, won't you,
join the dance
thinking seeing is the act of acceptence,
not thinking taking the act in conception.

He does not steal from me, who lights
his smoke from mine.

I arrive late. It is my way. I do use vegetables.
Excuses and excauses, we have in abundance.
When killing the opposition was first response,
we passed through a hisseephit pfft phaze.

The first thing. The Principal Thing. Peace
upon the figurative brow of the frustrated one thing.

The terror of ever being one thing and no thing more;
God's own dread, we may imagine, feels like ours,
boredom becomes insanity and insanity is mortal hell.

Wisdom, offered in doses from ancient runes,
discerned from evil uses of knowledge, actual useable
Wisdom is first sensed peaceable, then gentle, not wild
skittish, gotta be tamed and mastered to be used, no,no, no

First peaceable, no push toward your opposite bias,
no feeling of imbalence down in you guts,
no angry creator jealous of the tempting knowledge.
Forest copious abundance, with know how.
Use of good,
and useless destruction of ancient good sense.
Who lies about you.
Personally, what living hate do you appropriate?

The idea that Christ, that word, holds a preconceived
story hook to a promise, an other word, progressively
pulling the thread through gnosis knots too tight to comb,
so we twist dreads into fashionable cool.

Truth in numbers is easier than truth
in otherwords aligned,

listening to everything, once, in a while.

Understand, when we conserve a westate, you and me,
we are the medium we exist to conceptualize in, within.

When the best combined minds in Mathematics
do agree, rarely, but when that instance of truth,
pops
backed by the Universe in which we live,
and, truly astoundingly, do breathe and have being,
ex nihilo as far as we may know right,
now
we as a whole, the species adapted to the times
we were born to mature through, to this end.



OK, in that curious bubble…
dear reader, this novel event is recorded,
to flashback in the future you need directed

steps, ah, nexts, in time, is one way,
memory is all over the place, but next
is always toward the not known yet.
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Found a four meter San Pedro,
on Craig's list, free, some may say

it is a sign, some message to a shaman
of the original dreamtime rerouted to now.

Some how we affect world peace, taking parts
less likely to effect fame and fortune, fool's roles
local poet
and studio talent anonymity,
aficionados only, olé.

A story genisisatates, blooming possibilities unimagined,
yet, apparently blooming in my neuronic memory,

Barrio Logan, boom, there it is, the real deal

achuma wachuma, calling my curiosity, come see.

You have heard the adage, "what you see Is what you get."

What you believe you get, you get, once you see you got it.

This life, our combined realities, as bubbles in the human foam,
rising on the surface of Earth's dry places… the we we form

can be led to lieve being true, stranger things than oath chains
that turn to torqs and eventually to full Windsor knotted ties.

The collar of the loyal oppostion, turns fashionable,
included in the mindset finding fashion cycles
common since the distinction was made.

Many long times and wars and running aways ago,
we learn to be us, the holders of these truths from them
who begot us in this land.

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Nah, Eve, she was not the culprit, truth be told.

Have a little talk with your Jesus, there in your core,
if you have formed a concept you hold true, Christmas
Peace on Earth, good will toward mankind, good news,
causal inferential essential entity, in a word, a little leaven.
Raw reasoning used on a forgiven fool stuck in conserving a political religious system that is rusting to dust... watch....
Dearest Maria Ligaya,

I do not know where to start. Maybe because we started close but ended separately like a stranger. I am not one to judge. They do. I am not biased either. I chose to walk away because I do not want a fight, a quarrel between us, to begin with.

When I sensed quarrel is gonna happen, I blocked you. Not because I hate you, but because I wanna avoid hurting you. But I realized, the more I tried protecting you, you were never doing the same for me too. It was like we chose to ride in a boat together, but chose to row it in different directions. We cannot adjust the wind, but we can adjust the sail— which never happened. Because you were too focused on the wind itself and not on its sail.

I chose not to test the waters at first, but clearly, I saw an alligator swimming. Later on, I learned to test the waters, survive through the tides, rising and falling. The calming comes and then storm happens. Just like how the waves rushes to meet the shore, we never met halfway. I was grateful for it. For the bouyancy. For the warning. That even when I almost drown, I stayed afloat.

Maybe you felt like a hero, just because you have a lot of things to say and you did. The unfiltered, raw words you told me directly or towards my family. I will never forgive you for that. But I chose to. Not because I was weak, not because I want to accept defeat. But because I wanted to come clean and act mature.

I did want to say things to you. I chose to protect your feelings. I do not wanna hurt you because I know myself— I can be tacky at times, I may not think first and speak afterwards. But for a fact that even if we are at war, I still chose to not tell it directly.

You did hurt my feelings. My family's feelings. You never even think twice to assess the issue and gather information or data. You easily judged us without proofs, with biased judgments, you chose to believe your son more than us. Of course, he is your son. Your flesh and blood. And who are we? Just your servants, right? No. We are your family, but you treated us like dogs. Spoiled us with your padala, your reject clothes, buy 1 take 1 products. In return, you could easily fool us.

With your ambition to go abroad, who helped you? — my mother. Who sent you there?— my father. You have the utang na loob? None. Nada. You do not need to repay us, okay? That was not out of obligation, not out of responsibility. But because we love you, we sent you to the airport.

Let me take you back to memory lane: she was my aunt. My cousin, her son. My recent enemy, her gold digger girlfriend, pa-papel sa tita kong naka-asawa ng cano, nagfi-feeling mayaman na. When her girlfriend came into the picture, we got chaotic. My cousin and I knitted like siblings since birth separated now because of her.

When her girlfriend arrived, I sensed a bad vibe aura. I interrogated her, she told my cousin. And my cousin told the nanny, that I am like the acting owner of the house, interrogating her. I was not interrogating her, I was getting to know her. If she finds it rude of me to ask her, then why did she show herself in my uncle's house. Yes, technically, the house was under my uncle's name (the eldest brother of my aunt and mom) but my aunt was the one paying for it. All through out my mom's life, she was the one left here in our city, my aunt went abroad, my uncle was in the rural area working as a teacher. I do not wanna complain, but my mom took care of my grandfather, when he died, my mom took care of it all.

Where were they? My relatives asked. Busy, I answered. When my grandma got sick, the fiasco dig in. The chaos caved in. There was no absolute, infinite and clear communication that happened. Before, I was proud enough to say that my family never fought for the land, but now, we do.

When grandma got bedridden, mom took care of things from left to right. At first, I was the one taking care of her, my mom and my back got painful from carrying my heavy grandma. My mom's back got worse. It still hurts and pains up to this day. While you there, sitting pretty in your mortgaged apartment in North Carolina. Edi SANA ALL. For not suffering. Not for being a pessimistic *****.

What is your point here Maria Ligaya? To belittle us? At least, my family is not like yours. My mom married a man so kind and loving, not like yours, a narcissistic ******* (as authored by the psychologist). That later on, your son became one too.

I may forgive you for a lot of things. But I will never forgive you for hurting my mom. Do you not have some conscience? She took care of everything for you. When that happens, just know your son will take care of everything for you.

We chose to walk away. To move to a new place without your ghost following us. We felt like a shadow every time we follow you. You even ruined my relationship with my cousin because of your pagka-engrata. Be grateful, I do not do revenge. Karma will do its vengeance for me. God will do it for me. He saw me when I was low. He saw me when I was helpless.  I hope God will forgive you for you did to us. Inhumane indeed.

That is all.

—Me.

— The End —