My skin shivers when your perfume smell lingers on me

My mind wonders if
I'll ever stop
writing about
you

He ripped her heart out
with pure cruelty.
He took her innocence away.
Left her with nothing but
shame,
regret
and endless nights of grief.
Left her with nothing but
nightmares, that haunted
her reality
and vivid dreams.
Left her with no feelings,
no emotions,
no virtue,
no heart,
no mind.
Left her with nothing but,
this state of never ending numbness.

I leave.
I leave before I fall.
I leave before I care.
I leave before it hurts.
I leave before I'm broken.
I leave before I'm in too deep.
I leave,
before I'm left with nothing
but dashed and scattered dreams
like infinite stars sparkling in the night sky.
I leave
before
they
leave.

She fell,
screamed
and yelled

Cried,
weeped
and called

Waited,
patiently
with hope

And

Finally

She
poured herself a drink,
put some lipstick on
and pulled herself together

Knowing
that
he's
never
coming
home

Sometimes I wish I had the guts to come and confess to you
But I find my insecurities stopping me,
My deepest fears holding me
& darkness consuming me

It's 3:00 AM again
and I still think of you
sometimes,
I wish I could simply talk to you
hold your hand under deep sky blue
touch your face like I used to do
look into your eyes like it was the last thing to do
but,
I know that they're wishes that cannot come true

No, I'm not one of those teens
Obsessing about sweet sixteens
Those wanna be beauty queens
I never wanted to be in the scene nor on a movie screen
I just wanted to wear my old ripped out blue jeans
And wander around the world like I'm somehow unseen
With a mad mind and a crushed heart that I'm lost in between  
Can you really blame me? **** it, I'm just nineteen

I find you,
everywhere
In this dim light,
thick smoke,
and
cigarette ashes of everyday
In that glass
of chardonnay
and
at the bottom of
every bottle of Rosé

Let's get drunk on cough medicine under the shattered stars
of our scattered hopes and dreams in the midnight sky,
get high on sugar like little children; out of control
and  straight  into  absolute  madness,
pop some sleeping pills and sleep
like there's no tomorrow
because when tomorrow comes it'll be all gone to waste and we'll be left with nothing but regrets and a whole lot of pain

Every night,
I wait for you
I watch for you
It feels that,
my whole life is for you
I can't breathe because
I'm waiting,
fiending,
and yearning for you
I exist for you
I belong to you
I just wish I can escape all of this,
and run away with you

In the darkness you can find me
Broken
Tormented
Scattered
Like millions of stars across the galaxy
In the darkness I lay
Waiting
Fading
Chasing
What's left of who I am
In the darkness
I am on the edge
Of me
Myself
And everything I believed in
In the darkness I'll be waiting
For you
To set me
Free of this agony
Free of this so-called life

Music might set you free,
but words will be your only savior.

“Between men and women there is no friendship possible. There is passion, enmity, worship, love, but no friendship.” ~ Oscar Wilde.

Unless
he
is
gay
my
dear

What's love without pain?
What's fun without games?
What's life without madness?
I wander through my scattered world with these three questions.
To find true love,
we must go through this painful process
of falling in and out of love, falling into the wrong crowd
and a line of men who will destroy what's left of our feelings.
To find the real meaning of fun,
we must play along in the schemes that life throws on us.
Enjoy it.
Embrace it.
Live with absolute and unconditional madness.
Learn how to fall
in
l i q u o r
& it's friends.

Ten
thousand views,
you guys are my muse!

But,
I never wanted to be perfect
I never asked to be pretty
I never desired a chateau
I never required a throne
I never needed a tiara

What I truly wish for is,
to be absolutely, completely and utterly flawless
(in his eyes)

I write to express.
I write when I'm opressed.
I write when I'm suffocating.
I write when I'm closest to exploding.
I write when I'm in love.
I write when I'm in pain.
I write when I want you.
And when I write,
I write for you.

My
favorite
song
is
the
one
I
hear
when
you
make
sweet
love
to
me

When I see your face
All my worries fade
& I'm no longer afraid
I feel like my whole life has been made

My heart fell for you like ashes of ciga rettes.

We've reached a point
where it hurts
more than it would please
and the cuts are just far too deep
for us to stay together so please just leave

When the world fails us only words can save us

What we had
we can't bring back
What we had
we won't forget
What we had
we shouldn't regret
What we had
is now unseen
What we had
is forever lost

What
we
had
is
left
for
tormented
souls
to
cry
for
and
mourn

Live with no regret
Forgive them and try to forget

Get on your knees and pray, he said to me.

I look at you and see everything I've ever wanted.
I see everything I've ever dreamt of.
Love,
Passion,
And absolute madness.
I see agony on your features.
Agony, that I want to take away.
I see pain in your eyes.
Pain, I wish I could make it go.
I see you with all of your twisted games.
And want you more than anything I'll ever need.

You
take
me
to
the
edge
of
this
mad
universe
where
everything
is
nothing
and
nothing
is
everything
where
nothing
exists
but
you,
me
and
this
endless
lullaby.

If only you could see what you mean to me

When it's completely,
lost and gone,
I write it back.